My NC experience. Will be updating regularly. General ranting/venting

[MW93i]

I blocked her facebook quite a while ago, and I stopped following her quite a while ago too, not sure if you can block on twitter? I mean, unfollowing her was fine and did the job, it's just that we both know SO many of the same people, I tend to see her name pop up occasionally if she's talking to any of them.

 

Buuttt, it doesn't really matter now though, i'm gonna just leave it for a bit

 

Good for you man , I've just been given a strict warning from my parents not to speak to her at all

 

Mother : 'Take it from a woman, even if she 'doesnt give a ****' you not showing attention to her will drive her insane'

[Conzy]

Good for you man , I've just been given a strict warning from my parents not to speak to her at all

 

Mother : 'Take it from a woman, even if she 'doesnt give a ****' you not showing attention to her will drive her insane'

 

Haha, your mums great! Mine encouraged me to meet up with my ex! (Which I did do, didn't go how I wanted it to go)

 

I wonder quite a bit if me going NC is driving my ex insane. I mean we used to talk everyday, she couldn't go an hour without talking to me because she'd miss me (Not even exaggerating either)

 

She claimed to stop loving me after about 2 weeks, which was when she was out with all her new partying friends. I always wonder if she's sitting there wanting me to contact. I'd like to think she does, I assume she isn't though, otherwise she would have contacted me regardless of me telling her to never contact me again!

[Conzy]

Haven't updated this recently, thought i'd pop back and say hey and let you know what's been going on

 

So as I said recently in the previous posts, I started getting into the habit of checking her twitter again. Well, all that did was bring me down (and quite a bit now looking back) though it became a habit, so despite me telling myself "DON'T DO IT, THIS IS A BAD IDEA" The more I said that the more I did it.

 

Well, I've finally broke the habit, haven't looked in the past couple of days and I feel a TON better. It's funny really how a simple sentence from the ex can bring you down ay?

 

Started back at college the end of this week, had a whole new bunch of people in all my classes. Super super cute blonde girl, real petite too, she kept looking at me and smiling. Oh damn she was nice! I'm gonna get to know her more tomorrow, i'm excited. Will try to get her number

 

I'm feeling pretty damn good at the moment if i'm honest. All the hard work i've been putting into my weightlifting and better eating etc is starting to pay off. I can already tell I look a lot better, and other people have said I look much better too. Really motivating.

 

Hope you're all well, take care

[Conzy]

Update:

 

Heard earlier on today through some old mutual mates that my ex was making out with a girl at a party the other night. My ex and this girl have been friends for about 2 years, she's known the other girl was a lesbian since they met.

 

I used to joke about this stuff back when we were together, like "Ahh would you ever kiss her?" and she'd be like "I'd joke about it but ewww no that's gross, i'd never actually do it" (We both have nothing against gays/lesbians)

 

But I dunno, I guess she did, and apparently she kept going back for more lol. Feels kinda strange for me I guess. Don't really know what to think if i'm honest lol :S

 

Take care

[Conzy]

Hey all, haven't been on here in a few days. Thought i'd pop back

 

I'm doing pretty good. Back at college now (which she is also at, haha) haven't seen her yet which is good, i'd rather not! - But if I do and we lock eyes + talking distance i'll just say "Hello :)" then carry on walking past.

 

It's now been a solid 2 months of NC and i'm not gonna lie, i'm pretty proud. I used to struggle going 3 hours without giving her a text when we were together, so 2 months is amazing.

 

I'm beginning to feel like a lot of the things I think about her are actually in fact just out of sheer habit. It's weird to explain, I'll think of things but kind of feel nothing towards it, then I sit and think "Is it actually just all habit that's waiting to break?" (Not sure if that makes sense haha, does to me though)

 

Not sure what else to say atm, nothing major has really happened I guess haha. I'm good though, hope you all are too.

 

Take care

[mvc]

im in a similar position as you, me and the ex texted/talked on the phone countless times a day (for 6 years) and now im trying to resist the urge to pick up the phone and look for msgs/calls(ive cracked and txt her twice in about a month so not that bad i spose). my ex is stubborn like yours and i would find it very surprising for her to contact me (id probs go buy a lotto ticket if she did) but having troubles not checking her facebook, another habit i had. i know people say to delete her but i feel that kinda makes me look bad (yes i know) so setting goals of not checking until a certain time (which is helping, havnt checked for 2 days).

 

so yeah keep up the posts when you can as i think they will be quite useful to help me get by

[Conzy]

im in a similar position as you, me and the ex texted/talked on the phone countless times a day (for 6 years) and now im trying to resist the urge to pick up the phone and look for msgs/calls(ive cracked and txt her twice in about a month so not that bad i spose). my ex is stubborn like yours and i would find it very surprising for her to contact me (id probs go buy a lotto ticket if she did) but having troubles not checking her facebook, another habit i had. i know people say to delete her but i feel that kinda makes me look bad (yes i know) so setting goals of not checking until a certain time (which is helping, havnt checked for 2 days).

 

so yeah keep up the posts when you can as i think they will be quite useful to help me get by

 

Yeah I used to literally look at my phone every 10 seconds and i'm not exaggerating at all. I'd keep it in my phone and whatever I was doing I'd always look down at it. Out with friends or whatever, i'd walk around with it in my hand constantly checking. Eventually you'll just realise that you don't do it no way near as much as you used to

 

I never bothered with deleting my ex off of facebook. I just simply stopped going on it, it really is boring anyway. But on the occasions I DID decide to go on there, i'd see a whole bunch of pictures posted from our mutuals friends showing her out at clubs dancing etc. Got sick and tired of it so I just hid all her future posts (Forgot how to do it, there is a way though) But to stop manually typing her name in, that's just gonna take time man

 

I know i've said it in one of my posts somewhere above, but a thing that really helped me with the NC is just stop and think to yourself "What will this achieve? What am I going to gain by sending her a friendly hey" and you just gotta look at it logically, you won't get a reply of "Hey, I miss you I regret my decision" etc etc. If that was the case you would have heard from her by now. When I sat and thought that I put my phone away right away, it does help. Big time

 

All the best, take care