Alix Posted August 29, 2012 Posted August 29, 2012 After three years of being in love with her - which was a shock to me as I had never realised before that I was able to develop romantic feelings for another woman - I confessed in a letter to my friend M. that I was deeply in love with her. This was right before she moved back to Australia (I live in Europe). Initially M. responded really well. She said she was really glad I told her and that I would always be a great friend. I was delighted with that reaction as it was basically all I could hope for. However, right after she moved back to Australia she's basically cut me out of her life. She's never on Skype anymore (I reckon she blocked me) and never responded to the e-cards I sent her for christmas and her birthday. She did message me for my birthday saying how sorry she felt for not contacting me earlier, but that 'life just caught up' on her. That's the only thing I hear from her in a year's time. Anyway, it's clear to me she doesn't want me to hear from me anymore - even not as a friend - and I think I've been quite proactive in trying to move on. I've taken up the dating thing again and a few weeks ago I've met this guy who is lovely and also seems to like me a lot. However I've noticed that I keep comparing him to M, which seems unfair. Also I keep missing M so much it hurts (I can't even look at photos of us without crying) and there doesn't seem to enough room in my head. This is very frustrating, because M obviously doesn't care about me and lives on the other side of the world. What can I do to forget her? I've already unfriended her Facebook, erased all her texts and deleted her numbers from my phone...
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