Girls what do you think

[Dirtyeggroll]

So my ex gf and I broke up about a month ago. We had been dating for 10 months and were official for the past 4 months. We took a break when she went out of the country for a month and when she came back she said the time away made her realized that she doesn't want a serious relationship. As a side note before we started Dating she had been dating her previous bf for 2 years. He cheated on her twice and it is safe to say that he screwed her up bad. And then 3 months after they broke up we started talking and I got to deal with the repercussions. Repercussions being that she has a hard time trusting people and she can't fully open up and put her self out there for me. She would always say that she didn't want a serious relationship before we were official and I never pressured her. It was her choice to become official with me and I agreed that we should. So if she didn't want a serious relationship why did she want to become official? And she isn't a slut so when she says she doesn't want a serious relationship I know its not because she wants to sleep with other guys. But then why does she want to be single? To hang out and have fun with her friends? I just don't get it. Fast forward to now though... So I was doing great an was just finishing getting over her by cutting contact and all that. We stoppe all texting a well. But then Saturday night she texted me to come over to my friends house. She said things like "I miss you", " I wanna see you" etc. I said she just wanted to see me because she was kind of drunk and she replied with " no I sincerely want to see you, I still miss you like crazy and like you." So I caved and we hung out and talked forever and held each other and made out and it felt just as if we were dating again. I was so happy and so full of hope that maybe we would start things slow again.

Then the next morning came and I get a text from my ex saying "I'm so sorry last night happened. It shouldn't have because it's only gonna make things harder for us. I could see us takin thing slow again but I think it's a bad idea as of now. The last thing I want to do Is play with your emotions so I will leave you alone from now on. "

I'm just so shocke and don't know what to do or think. My friends said that when she got to the party the first thing she did was ask where I was. And then she talked to one of my friends about me and she almost started cryin over me. The other reason she can't date me right now is because she is clearly dealing with some issues because of what her ex did to her. She said that "if anyone deserves my love it's you but for some reason I just can't give that to you right now, and idk why. So if we were to keep dating my feelings would stay the same and yours would keep growing and that's not fair to you because I know you want a love filled relationship. I guess for now we will just see where things go and just take it day by day."

So that's that idk what to do or think. She made my feelings skyrocket for her again and gave me high hopes for nothing. From a girls perspective what should I do? I just don't understand why she can't just make an effort an figure her issues out. I don't get why that is so hard for her. I told her I'm going to just keep doing my thing and not wait around for her. But now I miss her like crazy and want her back and everytime I see her it hurts like crazy. If she isn't ready for a relationship I don't think I have to worry about any other guys and that I still have the best chance of a relationship with her but I still don't know. And the worst is I feel like this isn't the end, all it takes is for her to be drunk again and this will happen again

[KungFuJoe]

As if the wall of text was not bad enough...you had to make it all in bold?