Third Chance

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Hello guys i am going through rough times and i need your help. I will try to make this as short and to the point as possible.

 

Ok i have an EX girlfriend who broke up with me 6 months ago. We were madly in love and we knew everything about each other. We did everything together and she was my best friend which i loved more than any girl i have ever been with. We were attached by the hip. She is 20 years old now and i am 24. We have dated for 2 years on and off, about 1 year and 6 months straight though. The first time we broke up because she went to an ex's party (but that was the first month of the relationship) then after everything was good for about a year and a half. THe second time we broke up because i was being verbally aggressive, which i take fault for. I would disrespect her alot and have nasty fights. Third time we broke up because she couldnt take me asking and begging for sex and always accusing her of being with a club promorter she had hooked up with the second time we broke up. So heres a little more in deph about our relationship. We have broken up Three and it is mostly because of..."SEX". SHe has stopped wanting to have sex, when before we were having sex like rabbits! I was so insecure that i would question and to the point that id have to beg for it. i know i messed up in that part but i was so attracted and in love that i was scared of losing her. While we broke up, i find out she hooked up with some club promoter but thats it. After a whole lot of begging she decides to meet up with me. She tells me that i will never change my ways and that she has all this attention from these guys and likes it. She said we cant be together and thats it. I was heart broken and hurt, she saw it in my eyes and began to hug and kiss me, telling me to please take it lightly and do whats best for us. She showed a lot of caring right after, and i was so emotional distressed that i started crying. I am very tough and its very hard to make me cry like that in front of someone...but it happened. We then kissed and said good bye for what i thought was the last time. Two weeks later it was my bday, she texted me happy birthday and said she wanted to meet up. I then go and leave the club i was in to pick her up. I take her to my house and we have sex. Next morning shes regretting it and saying it shouldnt of happened. She dissapears again for a couple of weeks and finally decides to work things out. She was telling me she felt so horrrible for me and that she still loves me. I think she got back with me since she felt so bad...but everything was so good for 6 months, and the sex part started happening again...she then made excuses that i was askign for it so much and begging so it turned her "off". She said just let it happen, and also that she wants to be more intimate and not just have sex and thats it. I also kept accusing her off being with that club promorter ...but htat was just me making up excuses for her not having sex and trying to put the blame on her. i knew deep down she was faithful to me. it was just a psychological block i could not get over...i knew that if i kept bringing up that guy shed eventually get tired...and she did. She broke it off, and here i am. six months later...i find an girl which all i wanted was a hook up. We had sex with a bunch of my friendds looking...she is the best sex of my life till this date. THis girl does all these freaky things, and has been with girls as well. She has a reputation and i just wanted a hooku8p. Wel things didnt turn out that way...as the days went by we started getting emotional feelings. Keep in mind this new girl is 19 years old, shes really young for me...and doesnt have the physcial qualities my ex has. But one thing she did...she gave me lots of attention...lots of sex...and tried to make me as hapy as she can. SHe quit being "out there" and stayed with me every weekend. She has been so amazing to me. THe only thing is that it was suppose to be just a hook up and ended up being more. I have told her many times, i do not want commitment but yet we act like we are in a relationship. NOw my ex sees me happy with another girl and decides to miss me now. SHe texted me saying that now i have a new girl and never apoligized to her ( i did apologize many times, and even said id go to counseling). She didnt take my apology before so of course i gave up. She is now saying how cani be with a dirty young girl and all. obviously she is seeing how happy i am and wants me back. She is willing to work on our faults after 6 months. We are still deeply in love and we admitted that to each other recently. I do not love this new girl, but i do have some feelings for her. Everyone says going back to an ex never works out, but im so deeply in love with her that we planned a date to talk this weeekend. Fix our faults and see what went wrong, and work on them together. I really want her back, but now i feel bad for the new girl. SHe has been nothing but great to me....oh i forgot to mention she tried getting at my friend in thebeggining (the new girl) and i still kept sleeping with her because i didnt think anything more than just a "****". now we have seen each other for about 4 months and got really close. I hate hurting peoples feelings and its hard to tell her that i need a break, or i dont want a relationship right now becasue she is so gullible and so sensitive. Shes an awesome girl apart from all that history she has. She is cute as hell in a different way, she has a great personality. On the other hand, my ex is super beautiful and has a great body. She has a great personality also but does not show the affection and care the new girl shows me. I am so confused and do not know what to do. ...i hope someone has any suggestions and thank you in advance