eggy Posted August 26, 2012 Posted August 26, 2012 So its been 2 years since BU. I just got back from one of my good friend's wedding and she was there with her new bf. At first I it didn't bother me at all but after seeing them dancing and kissed it struck me hard. A curtain of sadness feelings rained over me and it was hard to hide. We did not spoke a word to each other or acknowledged each other (caught her lurking over a few times) Funny huh?...the person that you once had the MOST intimate relationship with and now nothing...as if nothing never happened. Its kind of sad actually to know that she just somebody that I use to know. I am now sad as sad can be. The other thing is that I still feel that there is this strong energy between us. Even though a word was not spoken I felt that there were still connection there, like there was a greater force...I dunno wishful thinking?
paperboy48 Posted August 26, 2012 Posted August 26, 2012 Isn't that a song....which I hate by the way.
Jingle14 Posted August 26, 2012 Posted August 26, 2012 So its been 2 years since BU. I just got back from one of my good friend's wedding and she was there with her new bf. At first I it didn't bother me at all but after seeing them dancing and kissed it struck me hard. A curtain of sadness feelings rained over me and it was hard to hide. We did not spoke a word to each other or acknowledged each other (caught her lurking over a few times) Funny huh?...the person that you once had the MOST intimate relationship with and now nothing...as if nothing never happened. Its kind of sad actually to know that she just somebody that I use to know. I am now sad as sad can be. The other thing is that I still feel that there is this strong energy between us. Even though a word was not spoken I felt that there were still connection there, like there was a greater force...I dunno wishful thinking? Isn't that the worse thing? I have shared my most intimate times with this man - far more than with my ex husband or anyone else in my life and he said this was the same for him with me - we had wonderful times together, send many messages, texts and emails saying how much we loved each other, had planned a life together, shared secrets, dreams and yet now nothing. I recently sent him a text (we're not in contact it was for a particular thing) ending it 'best wishes' like he was a colleague or stranger. We used to send such warm, loving messages with lots of xxx on the end. It breaks my heart, especially know he is now sharing those things with someone else whereas I have chosen to remain single since he left me. Just shows what he really thought of me and how forgettable and easily replacable I was/am. Just hope she finds out, like I did, that he is really no glittering prize, just a flawed and damaged nasty piece of work. 1
Author eggy Posted August 30, 2012 Author Posted August 30, 2012 Isn't that the worse thing? I have shared my most intimate times with this man - far more than with my ex husband or anyone else in my life and he said this was the same for him with me - we had wonderful times together, send many messages, texts and emails saying how much we loved each other, had planned a life together, shared secrets, dreams and yet now nothing. I recently sent him a text (we're not in contact it was for a particular thing) ending it 'best wishes' like he was a colleague or stranger. We used to send such warm, loving messages with lots of xxx on the end. It breaks my heart, especially know he is now sharing those things with someone else whereas I have chosen to remain single since he left me. Just shows what he really thought of me and how forgettable and easily replacable I was/am. Just hope she finds out, like I did, that he is really no glittering prize, just a flawed and damaged nasty piece of work. It is a terrible feeling. Been almost a week and yet I cannot shake the image of her with him. I know she is not as happy being with him as she was with me. I've seen her when she is happy...she did not displayed any of that. She never held onto him as she did to me. She did not feed him food as she always did for me. She was not at all touchy feely as she was again with me. Man I should've never went to the wedding...=(
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