smint Posted August 23, 2012 Posted August 23, 2012 Ok.I don't know what I want to hear,and why I am posting here again,but today I am devastating -I met my ex when I was 18,we needed over one year just to first kiss -we were together 7 yrs since our teenage yrs to adult,now I am 26 and he is 28 -this winter was my bday and he bought me this time most beautiful present ever-necklace in beautiful shape,but I got it as engagement ring,because everything was going to that direction -then in March,we talked by the phone and I told him that I have bought muffins for us to eat when we meet,I was happy and I was telling him something funny what happened to me that day and on the other side I just heard him telling me"I feel sad to do this when I hear how lively and happy you are,but I don't love you anymore,it' over"!!!-out of nowhere!!! -then he refused to meet me,and I prayed to meet him,and then it was like"go home to sleep,we will talk tomorrow,and there was no tomorrow,then I started calling and texting him,lowering myself,two times I came to his door,1st time he slammed door in my face,2nd told me not to come again because he will not let me in,he turned into monster,he hasn't got any normal reason to give me for BU and it was like"I have all the power over you,and you are nothing to me",his reasons were like"we are different,you don't like paintball"???AAAAAA??? Anyway,2,5 months after he introduced his new girlfriend to all our common friends,he presented her to his parents,but he never admitted to me for her,then he disappeared from me totally,I had no idea are they together,I let him go,I don't see our common friends so I had no information. He left me by the phone,refused to talk to me in live,and just disappeared!!! Then I met one guy 3 months after crying(skin on my face was different because of tears),and I started dating him,I needed someone's hugs,and to feel wanted again,and it turned out that this new guy has friend,whose father is friend of my ex father!!!I was shocked!!! Fate??? So he was informing me what is my ex doing when he hears something,5 months after leaving me HE ALREADY LIVES WITH THAT NEW GIRL!!!She is 28,divorced,has no job,has no school,and has child who is 5!!!And she is from place 100km from here,they live in her flat with her child!!! What I want to figure out is what she has done to him to leave one healthy RS he had with me???W needed more then 1year just to kiss,and he is already living with her??? I did my last exam during NC,and I came home and instead to be happy,i cried like crazy,this Tuesday I have my thesis for finishing faculty and I miss him so much,I wish he is with me right now... I don't know is there a person who kissed his/her partner more then I was kissing him!!!I was telling everybody that I have the best bf in the world,and so did he!!! Does he regret sometimes,is he the person I used to know...I never took his phone in my hands to spy on him,even not comupter,he even had Facebook and haven't told me over a year,I wasn't controlling at all,he had all the freedom with me... He contacted me in July asking me how I am and I ignored him,on fb he liked my picture,and I blocked him.Today my old phone broke down,so I put my card in one old and there were 2msg from 2008.-his messages,when we came from Greece,how he misses the sea,the flowers of woman who was renting us apartment,and most of all waking up behind me!!!How could I resist not to cry!!! And one more thing,I was thinking of adopting baby one day,and when I asked him what he thinks,it was"why would I take someone else's child,when I can have mine"and look,now he has noting against it!!! Sorry,it's long i know,I miss him sooooooo much,and really cant believe what he has put me through....
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