Steelrain322 Posted August 23, 2012 Posted August 23, 2012 Dated for 18 months, each others firsts. I'm 18 months post break up. 15 months NC, but still plagued by her. The pain has tremendously subsided but she still occupies my thoughts everyday. It's really annoying. I can observe my thoughts and realize how stupid it is to keep thinking about the same things over and over again but I can't stop it. I have not dated or been with another girl sexually since. Is this my problem? Even if I did go whoring myself out, would it make me forget? I doubt it. I just want to fully move on. I suffered unbearable pain for just over one year, pain rivaling the death of a loved one (which I have regretfully experienced also). I deserved to go through this pain for the way I treated her. But I feel like the punishment should be over by now. Am I just so lonely that my mind drifts back to her because she was always there for me? How do I fully let go? I'm sick of feeling depressed and dwelling about a girl I haven't been with for 18 months. Thoughts?
weallfalldown Posted August 23, 2012 Posted August 23, 2012 Some of us are more sensitive than others......some of us are weaker than others......some of us just deal with things better......there are no answers.. but i do know, that if you caused the breakup, and you still loved that person, you will naturaly beat yourself up, analyze, and make yourself feel like crap, beause ultimatly, you know you could have still had that person if you hadn;t acted the way you did etc, which kind of makes it worse. You have tortured yourself enough my friend, Your life does not revolve around her, or anyone else in that sense......... Find someone else.....or concentrate on making YOURSELF happy....
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