pc2012 Posted August 21, 2012 Posted August 21, 2012 I was with my ex for 2 1/2 years and we broke up in June because we were having arguments and he always felt I had attraction issues with him. If I am honest, I didnt fancy him in the beginning of our relationship, but over the years my feelings grew for him. He broke it off with me after feeling rejection and that I wasnt attracted to him and it was only after that, that it really hit me that I lost him. I was missing him severely and I tried my hardest to get him back before he went on holiday a week later. He said he wasnt interested and that he just felt we wouldnt work. On holiday he slept with someone else and he continued seeing her when they got back from holiday. I called him after his hol and got it out of him that he had sex with someone else and it killed me. For days I was so upset but a part of me still wanted him. I met him a week later and we went out...ended up having a really good night and then went back to his place and he said he wanted to give things a go. He said he would tell the girl. For the next 5/6 weeks things I felt were so much better with us. There were a couple of times I started an argument with him about the girl as it hurt so much to imagine him with someone else. Out of nowhere and all his positive talk about us, he said he still had doubts that this would work and that he didnt want to hurt me or waste my time and ended it AGAIN. This ofcourse took me off guard and I felt shattered. A couple of weeks later I spoke to him and told him I was moving on and dating people and that it would probably be too late if he ever realised his mistake. Since then he has been texting me saying he feels he messed up, that he hurt me really badly and he wanted me to give him a chance to make it up to me. He is o a 1 month trip to south america and its only been 1 week. I told him he needs to use this time to reflect on what he really wants and that i cannot wait for him anymore. He sent me some lovey dovey texts which did make me feel optomistic but I am scared he will let me down again. Over the weekend i met his friend that decided to tell me more than i needed to know about my exs relationship with the random girl. That got me angry and let to me sending my ex some angry messages. He then replied to me saying this wont work as I am still so angry. A day before this, he sent me a text saying, I was right and that he should use this time to really reflect on what he wants and that the thought of me with somoene did really shake him up. He said he will call me in a few days. I am now scared that because i sent those angry texts, he will now think this wont work. What should i do? He has had complete power all this time and finally i felt i was in control when he was messaging me again..... I still feel so sick when I think of him and the other girl. I dont know what to do. I miss him alot and want to be with him at the same time.
Sav Posted August 21, 2012 Posted August 21, 2012 You know, I didn't really like my ex at first too. But when she called it off, I was extremely upset and heartbroken. But you know what? I think it's because of the shock and the sudden loneliness that you feel. I'm doing much better even though I still feel weird without her. So hang in there
I'm nuts Posted August 21, 2012 Posted August 21, 2012 My advice.... Do not ever never ever go back. Always look ahead, never back even though it hurts, it passes and better things always come, believe me.
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