ellllllarose Posted August 20, 2012 Posted August 20, 2012 Read everything, I promise you'll be proud of me. Blocked him on Facebook, and haven't been on as much as I was in the beginning. I'm trying to make friends and go out more. Woke up, looked at his friends facebook that I know he's with for the week. Oh, they went to the beach yesterday while I worked all day? Cool, didn't care. S**t, I don't even know what day of no contact it is. Is that good? I woke up this morning with Taylor Swift's "we are never ever ever getting back together" chorus stuck in my head. I would like to think I'm making some good progress but of course I'm always going to miss him. I think about him constantly but I realized that he's been moved on since before we even broke up. I will not be Tom from (500) Days Of Summer and sit here, moping around like I have been, analyzing everything and wondering where it all went wrong. Although, I could very well tell you if you asked, that's how much of a Tom I was being in the beginning. Ha! I keep hoping for a "We went NC and he came back!!" post to show up here but it hasn't. I didn't get one ounce of closure. None. Not a single word has passed between us since I walked away on that morning crying hysterically. I do hope he's okay, not happy, but just okay. Because I am actually okay. I can't think of anyone new to talk to, I don't have any boys blowing up my phone like they always used to. I'm just being me, doing what I do. I turn seventeen on Friday (bring on the YOU'RE SO YOUNG comments) & of course I'm hoping for a happy birthday from him but I don't want one simply because I don't want to be put in the position of answering or not. I bet he didn't even remember it's my birthday, hahaha. But I'm getting my tattoo that day, my senior year of high school starts in two weeks. I'm ready for life to start.
weallfalldown Posted August 20, 2012 Posted August 20, 2012 buy yourself a soda pop, and have some fun......
Crila16 Posted August 20, 2012 Posted August 20, 2012 First off...your life has already started. Welcome to it. It's just some stuff life throws at you to prepare you for the future. Life never will stop throwing curve balls at you and you're just beginning. I'm very proud of you for the no contact thing. The new Pink song is great to listen to too...and the Kelly Clarkson song, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. ...and I know you're young, but what you're feeling is very real, as is the pain of any break up. Break ups don't get any easier as you get older. They always hurt, no matter what age you are. I'm just proud of you that at your age, you're sticking up for yourself and giving yourself the strength to get through this. A lot of people your age would be a puddle, like I was when I was younger. Once you're over him, you're going to be so proud of yourself...and that you got you through this.
Author ellllllarose Posted August 20, 2012 Author Posted August 20, 2012 First off...your life has already started. Welcome to it. It's just some stuff life throws at you to prepare you for the future. Life never will stop throwing curve balls at you and you're just beginning. I'm very proud of you for the no contact thing. The new Pink song is great to listen to too...and the Kelly Clarkson song, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. ...and I know you're young, but what you're feeling is very real, as is the pain of any break up. Break ups don't get any easier as you get older. They always hurt, no matter what age you are. I'm just proud of you that at your age, you're sticking up for yourself and giving yourself the strength to get through this. A lot of people your age would be a puddle, like I was when I was younger. Once you're over him, you're going to be so proud of yourself...and that you got you through this. ohhh they're on my playlist as well! but thank you:)
TaraMaiden Posted August 20, 2012 Posted August 20, 2012 Yo elllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllarose, well done honey!! you're such a cool gal! Keep it up! There may be days when you slip up a bit, and you feel more like elarose than ellllllllllllllllllllllllllllarose - but this too, shall pass! You go girl!! 1
rach24680 Posted August 20, 2012 Posted August 20, 2012 well done im really happy for you. of course you're still going to have some ad days, but when you do just read this back to yourself and remember life goes on
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