zoomzoom Posted August 20, 2012 Posted August 20, 2012 So after making my mind up about a month ago that my ex is meaningless to me and we will never be together again I have been lucky not hearing from her, about her or having to see her at all. She lives in the other part of town that I work in and I live in another town so when I'm not working I don't have to worry about seeing her. Well after being on duty for only a half an hour 6:30AM to be exact I'm sitting at an intersection in my patrol area and bam she rides through the intersection! I know she saw my patrol car, I am assigned the only SUV in the department. She looked but I don't know that she saw me, I almost caught her at the next light but then I turned off. The crappy part about all of this is as soon as I saw her in her car the thoughts started.... I started shaking and could feel my emotions weaken me, I was wondering where the hell she was coming from this time of the morning?? what she had been up to??? was she going to call??? last time she texted me I ignored her text and never got back to her, Ive been doing so damn good for the most part now this just brings it all back up. When will this feeling go away?? not soon enough!
Renard99 Posted August 20, 2012 Posted August 20, 2012 My best advice will be to just roll with it. These set backs happen. Treat yourself like today is the first day after the break up and build yourself back up in the same way that you did when it actually was the first day after the break up. My ex works in the building at the other end of the street. I see her occasionally, going to or from work or heading down to the bank on a lunch break. The first few times it happened I was a mess, going through all the same things that you thought this morning. But, as time has gone on, I've asked fewer questions in my head and thought about her for less and less time after each encounter. I'm at the point now where my feelings surface for a fraction of a second. I can't say I feel nothing... I was with her for over 7 years after all... but it's not even enough to interupt the conversation/train of thought I'm having when I see her now. You'll get there! Plus you have a cool SUV patrol car. Push a few buttons, flash the lights.... keep your mind active elsewhere :-)
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