Chs Posted August 20, 2012 Posted August 20, 2012 So, since last october i have been depressed in phases. Sometimes im good, sometimes im not. It all started with me breaking up with an ex whom i loved alot, and she is still somewhat part of my problem. Now thing is, im moving out of my apartment this friday to a city 50 kilometres away. I feel so empty, i know about 3 people in the new city, and i have a great deal of friends and history in my current one. This apartment always reminded me of my ex, because she was there with me from day one, even if it's been almost a year since we broke up i still think about her sometimes and now i know for certain we will never start talking again, even if only as friends. It's hard finding the words on this. I have been trying to tell myself that this is a new start and i should appreciate it and it is the best for me, but it really doesen't feel that way. Just about the only things keeping me going is my few friends down here, and the feeling of safety this apartment and city gives me. There is also this other girl, that i have started getting feelings for, and even if she doesen't return them right now, i feel it could happen, but it definetly won't now that im leaving. It's just overwhelming, and im really not in a mental state to start a new life right now.
kindest Posted August 20, 2012 Posted August 20, 2012 (edited) Why did you break up with her in the first place? Anyway, I know how you feel. I had a breakdown earlier today. I feel somewhat better but I know this is just temporary. But how I wish I could make some changes in my life, like yours. It's something that I need to do but unfortunately, some circumstances won't allow me to do it so I'm still stuck in this blackhole I've been in since 6 months ago. I know you can't feel it happening now, but you will feel better after you've made some changes in your life. I've done that before and it has helped tremendously. Edited August 20, 2012 by kindest
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