nevadagirl Posted August 17, 2012 Posted August 17, 2012 (edited) So I'll preface this by saying I'm not whining or playing the victim so please don't respond with the NC stuff and the make sure you block every email address he could have or may have ever used ever! This post isn't about that. It's about a month away from a year since the break up. The pain isn't the same anymore. I feel like I am mostly over it but I won't lie to myself or the people suffering on here and say I'm completely over it because I'm just not. A few weeks ago he came back around again pestering me about being friends. He sent me two emails (1 from meetup.com and the other from a made up email address) that I at first ignored but then once I thought about it realized I was still kind of hanging on to this idea that I Mattered. I figured he must have a girlfriend or at the very least there was Something on that conveniently public FB he wanted me to see. So I looked and saw that I was right. New lady! Recent pics with the family! I was pretty upset for about a week but it didn't have so much to do with him. I was looking at my own life and overly critiquing the choices I have made since the break-up, which a few weeks out now seem like perfectly good choices. So now I'm pretty much back to where I was before I found out - still stumbling along but not in any great deal of pain. On to the point. When he first contacted me about being "friends" I ignored it because I don't want to be friends and don't believe he has any true care for me. (Still don't) I told him no thanks and that I didn't hate him or anything but had nothing to say to him anymore and asked that he not contact me again. He of course responded, but whatever. A few days later he said hi to my roommate on FB - someone he hasn't spoken to or seen in over a year. She ignored it. Then a few days ago he sent me a message that said "You ****ing moved?! ****." I ignored it. Weird thing is he sent it from is main email address. This is one he thought I had blocked (I won't go into why he thought I had it blocked or why it is not actually blocked because that's boring and irrelevent in this post) but for all intents and purposes there is no reason for him to think that email address is not still blocked. I don't know how he'd know I moved but I suppose if he e-stalked hard enough it could be possible to figure out. I can't imagine him actually driving to my old apartment and trying to talk to me. That scenario is just too unbelievable to me. (That would be effort and gas you see ) So. I'll admit. I'm curious as to why he's doing this. I don't think it has anything at all to do with giving a **** about me or my friendship or still loving me or anything like that. And the using an email address he has not messaged me under in almost a year because he believed it to be blocked is also strange to me. Maybe it was impulse and he never intended for me to even see that message? I don't know. But I was wondering... Could it really be bothering him that much that I basically told him (nicely) to go away forever? I had never actually said those words to him before - I'd simply ignored the weekly emails and messages and pictures he sent me for months after we broke up. It is puzzling. Edited August 18, 2012 by nevadagirl
kindest Posted August 18, 2012 Posted August 18, 2012 My ex constantly reached out to me since he broke up with me. I have to admit I was curious why he was doing this. So many things were going through my mind, i.e. is he feeling guilty? is he regretting his decision? does he miss me? etc. This went on for the 6 long months since we've broken up. It all came to a point when I got tired of the whole thing and finally (and nicely) asked him to stop contacting me. Thankfully, he agreed. NC (again) for one week now. I just don't care what he thinks anymore. It finally became clear to me that he is selfish and has always been selfish and what he's doing is constantly trying to regain control over me. I just couldn't handle it anymore.
Recommended Posts