jmjacobs31 Posted August 16, 2012 Posted August 16, 2012 The other day I was posting how I was feeling better but today I feel like I have taken two steps back. I am missing him like crazy right now! Its taking all of my strength not to send him a pathetic email saying how I miss and love him. I actually wrote him an email and discarded it instead of sending it. I know it will do no good to send it and will only make me look more pathetic. Some days it just hurts so much worse then others. Some days I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. I am starting to forget all the bad and only remember the good and that doesn't help because there was a lot of bad. I hate that I am hurting and hes not. I hate that because of a choice he mad I am now suffering. I hate feeling this way, it sucks big time. I know after spending 12 years of my life with someone I wont be over them in just a few months but I have experienced pain in these bast 4 months that I didn't know existed. Its true what they say. Love hurts.
mgce Posted August 16, 2012 Posted August 16, 2012 I'm sorry for your struggle, jmjacobs. I know the feeling well; I'm so tired of being sad about my ex at this point. Just when I think I'm past it I start to feel sad again. Just when I got used to thinking of all her negative traits, I get stuck thinking of all her positive traits. One day we really *will* get off this rollercoaster. I wish that day was today. It's not, but that day *will* come. In the meantime, every day that goes by is a small success and a small victory for you and the strength you have.
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