outofgoodbyes Posted August 15, 2012 Posted August 15, 2012 i cant believe it took me this long to find clarity in all this... i finally sent him the dreaded nc text yesterday that ive been putting off for a while. i stopped with the excuses, took off the rose colored glasses and actually wrote down everything i didnt like about our relationship. i realized that i love and respect myself more than that and that i would never allow anyone else to make me feel lower the sh*t again, esp when i havent done anything wrong - i just was not the one for him... i thank everyone here who has given their input everytime i broke down in the last two weeks and contacted him, setting me back everytime... now that im on day 2, im feeling a lot more in control of my emotions... i do miss him... and i still find myself thinking about him... but i dont contact him because every time i get the urge i tell myself "you do NOT value yourself"... hopefully it gets easier soon... :/ 1
Appleness Posted August 16, 2012 Posted August 16, 2012 I'm proud of you Keep up the good work and stay strong! It gets better. He didn't get the best of you and you deserve so much better.
Author outofgoodbyes Posted August 16, 2012 Author Posted August 16, 2012 day 3 still missing him, which im guessing is normal. we normally text all day, we have been in the past year and im just getting used to not hearing from him. ive been stalking his online profiles and thank god he hasnt posted anything. i have deleted them but theyre all public so there really is nothing i can do if i have no restraint. except on one of his profiles, he changed his status on tuesday night to "i miss you"... it could be about me, it could be not... but there is a sense of sadness that lingered all night and when i woke up this morning, the sadness had stayed and i found myself looking at his profiles again. self restraint is hard... but at least im not contacting him! :/
youngnlove89 Posted August 16, 2012 Posted August 16, 2012 day 3 still missing him, which im guessing is normal. we normally text all day, we have been in the past year and im just getting used to not hearing from him. ive been stalking his online profiles and thank god he hasnt posted anything. i have deleted them but theyre all public so there really is nothing i can do if i have no restraint. except on one of his profiles, he changed his status on tuesday night to "i miss you"... it could be about me, it could be not... but there is a sense of sadness that lingered all night and when i woke up this morning, the sadness had stayed and i found myself looking at his profiles again. self restraint is hard... but at least im not contacting him! :/ You are right, it's very hard! But we have to be strong. We have to realize that we will get over this and so will they. It wasn't meant to be, if it was we wouldn't be in the predicament. Letting go is hard, but holding on is harder.
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