fin.

[2muchlove]

As I sit here after a solid day of self reflection I've come to realize ever since the ex entered my life I allowed her to emotionally control me and treat me like a box of used tissues. And now... I still let her take hold of me. Affecting my life after the death of our relationship. Shutting me down like a computer I sit here waiting to be turned back on.

 

Well I say f*ck that.

 

I'm flipping the switch this time.

 

Almost an entire month NC.

 

I'm done thinking about her.

 

I'm done wondering what she's thinking/doing.

 

I'm done talking about her.

 

I'm done wallowing.

 

I'm done feeling sorry for myself.

 

I'm done crying.

 

I'm done procrastinating.

 

I'm done letting the past take hold of me.

 

I'm done taking all of the blame.

 

I'm done wasting time wondering why.

 

I'm done asking questions.

 

We're all worth more than what these people have led us to believe.

 

And I fail to believe that we will ever be as bad as they made us feel.

 

I will now move on.

 

I will become a better man because of all of this.

 

I will forgive myself.

 

I will forget her.

 

I will get up every morning as if I meant to.

 

I will persevere.

 

Because I choose to.

 

And I can't wait till all of you do the same.

 

Much love.