Occu3.14'd Posted August 12, 2012 Posted August 12, 2012 About 10 years ago, when I broke up with my girlfriend at the time, she told me that one day, some girl was going to break my heart. At the time, I laughed it off because I thought it would never happen to me. I was too strong emotionally that no girl would ever have that power over me. Well here I am 10 years later, and she was right... I am a complete disaster right now. I am over a month out of the break up, and every second of every day is killing me. I am literally one thought or reminder away from breaking down into tears at any given moment. I never in a million years thought that this would happen to me. I've lost 20 pounds this past month, and it's not from working out. It's because that constant knot in my stomach makes it impossible to eat. I'm also sick of the anxiety and nausea that gets so bad I feel like I'm crawling out of my skin. I want to run away, but there's not a place on Earth I could go that would make this any better. I've never experienced anything like this, and there's no end in sight.
Balzac Posted August 12, 2012 Posted August 12, 2012 Keep talking. Weekends in particular are brutally painful. Those freshly****ed faces in every coffee shop. I'm well familiar with your pain.
not-a-drive-by Posted August 13, 2012 Posted August 13, 2012 We're all with you. It's a bit over 2 months since the BU for me, and it almost feels like day one of the BU. It hurts like hell, there's a constant lump in my throat and all I want to do is breakdown and cry. I've been fighting urges to contact my ex, fighting the urge to beg for him to come back. In all honesty, I never thought I would have to go through something like this. I never thought it would happen in our relationship. I ****ing hate it. At times, I wished I never met him at all. If he was never meant to be mine, why did I have to meet him? Why did I have to fall in love with him when he was never going to be mine? **** oath. I thought going on a trip was going to ease the pain and memories. How wrong was I? Every second, every minute, he was still there. I don't know where else to go either. The pain just follows. Reading or watching movies makes me sick. ****ing love stories everywhere. Sorry for the rant, but the pain and heartache is driving me nuts. I really ****ing hate life right now. I don't see the end of it either.
Garfish Posted August 13, 2012 Posted August 13, 2012 I've lost 20 pounds this past month, and it's not from working out. It's because that constant knot in my stomach makes it impossible to eat. I'm also sick of the anxiety and nausea that gets so bad I feel like I'm crawling out of my skin. I want to run away, but there's not a place on Earth I could go that would make this any better. I've never experienced anything like this, and there's no end in sight. I felt the way you describe when I split from my first wife. I couldn't eat either, I also couldn't sleep and actually had mild hallucinations and heart palpitations due to lack of sleep. But you know what? I got over it. There's an old proverb that says "This too shall pass". Just keep that in mind, I know it doesn't help much, but time heals all wounds.
LostOne1 Posted August 13, 2012 Posted August 13, 2012 We're all with you. It's a bit over 2 months since the BU for me, and it almost feels like day one of the BU. It hurts like hell, there's a constant lump in my throat and all I want to do is breakdown and cry. I've been fighting urges to contact my ex, fighting the urge to beg for him to come back. In all honesty, I never thought I would have to go through something like this. I never thought it would happen in our relationship. I ****ing hate it. At times, I wished I never met him at all. If he was never meant to be mine, why did I have to meet him? Why did I have to fall in love with him when he was never going to be mine? **** oath. I thought going on a trip was going to ease the pain and memories. How wrong was I? Every second, every minute, he was still there. I don't know where else to go either. The pain just follows. Reading or watching movies makes me sick. ****ing love stories everywhere. Sorry for the rant, but the pain and heartache is driving me nuts. I really ****ing hate life right now. I don't see the end of it either. I understand ur pain im going through a tuff time right now as u can read my topic. All i can say is what helped me was her telling me she needed space. And really there isnt much that can be done. The fact is U need space and ur partner needs space. Im still going through it all but i feel the space makes it easier for both sides to make a decision good or bad. In my case starting today I have 2 make space for 2 weeks.. at least maybe more depending on if she will text me after 2 weeks or not.. but thats how it is and you gotta find a way to kill time. I myself am just reading up ways to fix my relationship and what is good to do and not good to fix a broken relationship and even then I'd say i have 1% chance she will want to give us another shot. But I cant do anything else besides wait now... trust me texting and calling makes it FAR worse. I tried it and i know she called and said STOP texting me and give me space and ill call u if i feel like it. So i just leave it there and hope at some point she remmeber me and feels the need to check up on me... if not then well its over anyways so in the meantime it makes us stronger to move on.
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