ihateslowjams Posted August 12, 2012 Posted August 12, 2012 People keep saying that sadness/misery/depression is something you can control and turn around. To that saying, I scream out BS. Ive been doing everything I can to try to make myself happier and its not working. Ive lost all my friends simply due to them moving on (moving to a new city in general) or simply because they work most of the time and don't go out anymore. On my days off, I have absolutely nothing to do except to read books, work out, or watch movies by myself. For the next 3 weeks, I won't have school or a job and I want to just get away, but no one to go with... Honestly, I'm lonely AND alone... I know this is a very horrible patch I'm experiencing and it will eventually end, but how much longer am I going to feel this way? The only time frame I see is 1 more year since thats when Ill be moving out to live on campus at a university. I know that ex's don't owe you anything, but when my ex was in this same position as me for 2 years straight, I stuck by her and made sure she didn't feel what Im feeling now. It sucks how she saw me in a depressing mood and lost all my friends and bounced because she saw it as a flaw. Mentioning how Im boring now and Im not fun/exciting anymore. WTF?!?!?! How can someone not see the sadness another is experiencing and believe its who they are?!?!?! I am constantly trying to be productive and improve myself, but I'm not getting any happier...
KatZee Posted August 12, 2012 Posted August 12, 2012 I know that ex's don't owe you anything, but when my ex was in this same position as me for 2 years straight, I stuck by her and made sure she didn't feel what Im feeling now. It sucks how she saw me in a depressing mood and lost all my friends and bounced because she saw it as a flaw. Mentioning how Im boring now and Im not fun/exciting anymore. WTF?!?!?! How can someone not see the sadness another is experiencing and believe its who they are?!?!?! Funny how this works, huh? My ex was the same way. When I met him he hated his job, he was in a "depressed" state. He wasn't happy with anything. He had no money... blah blah blah. I stuck by him, always made sure he had a smile on his face, was there for him, never made him feel crappy about his situation, actually HELPED him get out of his job, and apply for school again... he said so many times he wouldn't be where he was if it wasn't for me. The second I was in a funk about my job, my lack of money, my desire to move out but couldn't because I had debt... he would say, "You're so negative, I need positive people in my life. Why are you XX years old and still living with your parents? Why aren't you doing anything to get out? He tore me apart and made me feel like the biggest piece of sh*t. Told me he wasn't sure he wanted to be with me anymore.. I hate people like this. They appreciate nothing. Just take and take and take from the other person and give NOTHING back. F*ck the both of them. Why not try doing things besides going to the gym? Volunteer somewhere, or join a class for fun... this way you can meet new people...
Author ihateslowjams Posted August 12, 2012 Author Posted August 12, 2012 Funny how this works, huh? My ex was the same way. When I met him he hated his job, he was in a "depressed" state. He wasn't happy with anything. He had no money... blah blah blah. I stuck by him, always made sure he had a smile on his face, was there for him, never made him feel crappy about his situation, actually HELPED him get out of his job, and apply for school again... he said so many times he wouldn't be where he was if it wasn't for me. The second I was in a funk about my job, my lack of money, my desire to move out but couldn't because I had debt... he would say, "You're so negative, I need positive people in my life. Why are you XX years old and still living with your parents? Why aren't you doing anything to get out? He tore me apart and made me feel like the biggest piece of sh*t. Told me he wasn't sure he wanted to be with me anymore.. I hate people like this. They appreciate nothing. Just take and take and take from the other person and give NOTHING back. F*ck the both of them. Why not try doing things besides going to the gym? Volunteer somewhere, or join a class for fun... this way you can meet new people... That sounds just like my ex. She even made the same arguments. How do they not see that we are trying to do something about it? Its not like we can resolve the issue instantly... plus there are other reasons to why it would take time. Argh!! I was thinking of volunteering, but I couldn't find something I wanted to join. Ill check again tonight for some events in southern CA. Hopefully I can find something to keep me busy
Author ihateslowjams Posted August 18, 2012 Author Posted August 18, 2012 Ever since I quit my job this past thurs, I can't get myself to be productive. Im just vegging out until school starts in 8 days where Ill have 18 units. For the next 8 days, I have nothing planned except to go to vegas the weekend before school starts, but thats still not enough. Im going to go crazy staying home reading books all damn day -_- Since I quit my job, I'm saving whatever money I have left over to try to last me until next year... SAVE ME!!!
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