Broke down and cried in PUBLIC. s*it just hit the fan i guess

August 10, 2012

so i didn't get any sleep last night like most nights now a days. mainly because i was crying. This morning i was out doing some chores for my mom and when i was coming back i just broke down and cried my eyes out IN FREAKIN PUBLIC. how embarrassing i know...but something just took over me. I miss his so very much and the fact that he hasn't talked to me in over a month is killing me slowly. but it didnt even stop there, i came home crying and when i realized how lonely i am and how he was the only person i had in my my life i just broke down to my knees and cried more.

emotions got the best of me today. i screamed into my pillow as i sat there crying. All the memories hit me like sh*t. i seriously wanted to pick up the phone and call him but honestly if i had meant something to him after the 2 yrs we've been together he would have called or asked how i am. i feel like im NOTHING. like im floating around and no one seems to notice how much im hurting and how much i need help.

i'm losing faith over everything in my life. he was my only friend and my everything. the only person who knew me so well and was there to pick me up and as the days go by instead of feeling better in going down hills. seems like everyone around me talks about how amazing their relationship is, how amazing their summer is, or how happy they are. sick and tired of even my single friends talking about how they got that long awaited call or txt from their ex. Thats how this summer was supposed to be, just me and him like always but now im here all alone with nothing left but sorrow and tears while hes out there living it up not giving a damn about me. F*ck my life. i wish he knew how much he really hurt me. 1month and a falf....the road to recovery is a long way for me cuz this feels like day one.

:'(

Edited August 10, 2012 by SoConfusedAndInShock

August 10, 2012

I'm so very sorry, but things WILL get better. I'm very broken hearted right now, but we just need to hang in there.

August 10, 2012

so i didn't get any sleep last night like most nights now a days. mainly because i was crying. This morning i was out doing some chores for my mom and when i was coming back i just broke down and cried my eyes out IN FREAKIN PUBLIC. how embarrassing i know...but something just took over me. I miss his so very much and the fact that he hasn't talked to me in over a month is killing me slowly. but it didnt even stop there, i came home crying and when i realized how lonely i am and how he was the only person i had in my my life i just broke down to my knees and cried more.

emotions got the best of me today. i screamed into my pillow as i sat there crying. All the memories hit me like sh*t. i seriously wanted to pick up the phone and call him but honestly if i had meant something to him after the 2 yrs we've been together he would have called or asked how i am. i feel like im NOTHING. like im floating around and no one seems to notice how much im hurting and how much i need help.

i'm losing faith over everything in my life. he was my only friend and my everything. the only person who ow me and was there to pick me up and as the days go by instead of feeling better in going down hills. seems like everyone around me talks about how amazing their relationship is, how amazing their summer is, or how happy they are. sick and tired of even my single friends talking about how they got that long awaited call or txt from their ex. Thats how this summer was supposed to be, just me and him like always but now im here all alone with nothing left but sorrow and tears while hes out there living it up not giving a damn about me. F*ck my life. i wish he knew how much he really hurt me. 1month and a falf....the road to recovery is a long way for me cuz this feels like day one.

:'(

The healing process comes in waves.

A few days ago I broke down and cried during a dinner at a restaurant because the person I was with started talking about my future. I had to completely stop talking because everything I tried to say would come weeping out of my mouth. And I'm a 25 year old male ffs!!

And the day leading up to that moment I was having a blast.

And my first love years ago? Forget about it. I remember walking from the parking lot to the mall and out of nowhere broke down in front of my mom. I sat on the curb and started bawling my damn eyes out.

It will continue to happen.

Just recognize it for what it is and appreciate it even.

Remember the healing process is never easy. But it does get better.

August 10, 2012

The healing process comes in waves.

A few days ago I broke down and cried during a dinner at a restaurant because the person I was with started talking about my future. I had to completely stop talking because everything I tried to say would come weeping out of my mouth. And I'm a 25 year old male ffs!!

And the day leading up to that moment I was having a blast.

And my first love years ago? Forget about it. I remember walking from the parking lot to the mall and out of nowhere broke down in front of my mom. I sat on the curb and started bawling my damn eyes out.

It will continue to happen.

Just recognize it for what it is and appreciate it even.

Remember the healing process is never easy. But it does get better.

Thanks for being honest and telling me ur experience.

Honestly this is not my first BU and i had cried and felt ad in the first one. But when i met this guy i was so scared to even get into a relationship cuz i was hurt from my other BU. but he turned out to be everything i ever wanted and he promised me the world everyday but now hes no where to be found. This is crazy. my mom was there today when i cried and it went just like how your went.

I'm so mad i got way comfortable with him and got to attached. now im paying the price cuz when we dated i only focused on him and didnt even have time for friends. Now im alone and hes still got his friends plus more. 2 years is not easy specially when the BU happens so sudden and over some dumb shi*. im scared of guys people.

i'll NEVER trust a guy again. i got screwed back to back. with both relationships and trust me it took me a while to get over the 1st one and to start dating when i had met him ( both LTR).

since the BU, im always on the edge and so mad at the world

August 10, 2012

Thanks for being honest and telling me ur experience.

Honestly this is not my first BU and i had cried and felt ad in the first one. But when i met this guy i was so scared to even get into a relationship cuz i was hurt from my other BU. but he turned out to be everything i ever wanted and he promised me the world everyday but now hes no where to be found. This is crazy. my mom was there today when i cried and it went just like how your went.

I'm so mad i got way comfortable with him and got to attached. now im paying the price cuz when we dated i only focused on him and didnt even have time for friends. Now im alone and hes still got his friends plus more. 2 years is not easy specially when the BU happens so sudden and over some dumb shi*. im scared of guys people.

i'll NEVER trust a guy again. i got screwed back to back. with both relationships and trust me it took me a while to get over the 1st one and to start dating when i had met him ( both LTR).
since the BU, im always on the edge and so mad at the world

Our situation sounds familiar.

Don't take it out on every guy though. Try and figure out what you could have done to make it better. Think about everything you gave and didn't give. Write it down. And keep adding onto it as you go along.

Also she had all of her friends and family here making it a lot easier for her. She managed to sabotage the relationship with my only best friend here. So technically I have nobody.

I got tossed like a used condom after trusting this girl with my heart. And not only that she decided to rub it in my face afterwards by telling me about all of her current sexual activities under the assumption I was "over it" a week after getting my heart broken.

I so badly hated every girl on the planet for that. But I know they aren't all like that.

It's a stiff reminder that all we really have to look out for us is ourselves.

So take care of yourself. You're #1.

August 10, 2012

sorry to hear your situ...you sound lovely though...i'm sure i'd eat you up....@)

August 10, 2012

Thank you guys again.

its really good to have the support here on LS. this is where i ran to when im so lonely or need to cheer up.

August 10, 2012

There is absolutely nothing wrong with crying, even in public. You are working through an extremely painful experience, and there are going to be times when your emotions hit you really hard. It is much better to cry and express your feelings than to attempt to stuff them away and ignore them. My boyfriend broke up with me in April, and for the last few weeks of school I cried just about everyday while I was there. I would try to make it to my car before having my emotional meltdown, but sometimes I couldn’t hold back, and I would just walk across campus with tears pouring down my face. Public breakdowns happen to the best of us. Don’t feel embarrassed or ashamed, you have enough to deal with as it is.

You are very strong to have not broken down and called your ex, you should be proud of yourself for that.

Don’t lose faith over everything in your life. It’s a really rough road, but it does get better. It just takes time (which really sucks, I know).

August 10, 2012

There is absolutely nothing wrong with crying, even in public. You are working through an extremely painful experience, and there are going to be times when your emotions hit you really hard. It is much better to cry and express your feelings than to attempt to stuff them away and ignore them. My boyfriend broke up with me in April, and for the last few weeks of school I cried just about everyday while I was there. I would try to make it to my car before having my emotional meltdown, but sometimes I couldn’t hold back, and I would just walk across campus with tears pouring down my face. Public breakdowns happen to the best of us. Don’t feel embarrassed or ashamed, you have enough to deal with as it is.

You are very strong to have not broken down and called your ex, you should be proud of yourself for that.

Don’t lose faith over everything in your life. It’s a really rough road, but it does get better. It just takes time (which really sucks, I know).

Thanks it actually felt good reading your comment.

im so glad im back from college. idk what i would have done if this would have happened when i was on campus like 6 hrs away from home. im having hard time going out last few days cuz of my my emotions. i really thought i meant something to him. wtf was i thinking? he knew i have horrible separation anxiety since i was a kid. everyone in my family abandoning me and dying and he knew very well of that and how i was so scared to get attached but he was crazy over me chased me and shi* all for nothing.

I had a big wall round me when we met 2 yrs ago and he knocked that down only to reopen my wounds (yup my worst fear: learning to love someone only to be hurt over and OVER again.)

i trusted this guy so much and love him with all my heart even after all the hurt. This is way to much than i can handle with all the other pain that's going on in my life. he the only was only thing that made sense guess thats y this has been hard on me.

Edited August 10, 2012 by SoConfusedAndInShock

August 10, 2012

so i didn't get any sleep last night like most nights now a days. mainly because i was crying. This morning i was out doing some chores for my mom and when i was coming back i just broke down and cried my eyes out IN FREAKIN PUBLIC. how embarrassing i know...but something just took over me. I miss his so very much and the fact that he hasn't talked to me in over a month is killing me slowly. but it didnt even stop there, i came home crying and when i realized how lonely i am and how he was the only person i had in my my life i just broke down to my knees and cried more.

emotions got the best of me today. i screamed into my pillow as i sat there crying. All the memories hit me like sh*t. i seriously wanted to pick up the phone and call him but honestly if i had meant something to him after the 2 yrs we've been together he would have called or asked how i am. i feel like im NOTHING. like im floating around and no one seems to notice how much im hurting and how much i need help.

i'm losing faith over everything in my life. he was my only friend and my everything. the only person who knew me so well and was there to pick me up and as the days go by instead of feeling better in going down hills. seems like everyone around me talks about how amazing their relationship is, how amazing their summer is, or how happy they are. sick and tired of even my single friends talking about how they got that long awaited call or txt from their ex. Thats how this summer was supposed to be, just me and him like always but now im here all alone with nothing left but sorrow and tears while hes out there living it up not giving a damn about me. F*ck my life. i wish he knew how much he really hurt me. 1month and a falf....the road to recovery is a long way for me cuz this feels like day one.

:'(

I'm so sorry to hear. I had a similar little outburst as I was walking through a grocery store aisle. I had just passed an elderly couple shopping, and I started to cry.. It was terrible.

Pain and grief comes and go in these waves. And while they're painful and embarrassing, they are certain to leave behind some insight into your character and what you're afraid of /feeling

August 10, 2012

he was the only thing that made sense***

August 10, 2012

I'm so sorry to hear. I had a similar little outburst as I was walking through a grocery store aisle. I had just passed an elderly couple shopping, and I started to cry.. It was terrible.

Pain and grief comes and go in these waves. And while they're painful and embarrassing, they are certain to leave behind some insight into your character and what you're afraid of /feeling

i look so weak and everyone who knows me thinks im so dumb to cry or feel the way i do about him.

everyone keeps telling me:

"you're way better than him."

"oh we warned you!!"

"it was only a matter of time before he broke ur heart!"

"hes a typical guy, which i really thought otherwise."

even my previous ex saying "oh trust me he'll prob regret it like i did. you're a wonderful person"

oh and the so many "OMFG you guy broke up?!?" ..... ugh oh stfu ur making it worst for me

ITS ALL BS tho! no one is really understanding how hurt i am or how things take time.

only here on LS ppl seem to get it. Thanks to everyone who reached out to offer few words and share their painful experiance as well.

August 11, 2012

You aren’t weak, you’re human. It is terribly painful to be rejected by someone that you love. Crying is a completely normal and healthy reaction to being hurt. You are not acting silly or dumb. I am sorry that your friends aren’t being more supportive. Have they never had their heart broken before?? It’s absolutely devastating. There really are no words that give justice to the pain that a break-up can cause.

And you were with your ex for two years, it certainly is going to take more than a month and a half for you to heal. You need love and support right now, not judgments and “I told you so’s.”

August 11, 2012

You aren’t weak, you’re human. It is terribly painful to be rejected by someone that you love. Crying is a completely normal and healthy reaction to being hurt. You are not acting silly or dumb. I am sorry that your friends aren’t being more supportive. Have they never had their heart broken before?? It’s absolutely devastating. There really are no words that give justice to the pain that a break-up can cause.

And you were with your ex for two years, it certainly is going to take more than a month and a half for you to heal. You need love and support right now, not judgments and “I told you so’s.”

thank you so much SadPanda...you really made me feel better. all of you guys did!! thank you for taking the time to share some love and show support in this difficult time.

August 11, 2012

You know I drank so much once, after talking to her that I woke up the next morning in a pool of vomit with just a shirt on. All this on a work conference.

The thing is all this happens. Don't beat yourself too much about what has already happened.

August 11, 2012

You know I drank so much once, after talking to her that I woke up the next morning in a pool of vomit with just a shirt on. All this on a work conference.

The thing is all this happens. Don't beat yourself too much about what has already happened.

dang that's a tough one to explain...and i guess you're right

August 11, 2012

Thanks for being honest and telling me ur experience.

Honestly this is not my first BU and i had cried and felt ad in the first one. But when i met this guy i was so scared to even get into a relationship cuz i was hurt from my other BU. but he turned out to be everything i ever wanted and he promised me the world everyday but now hes no where to be found. This is crazy. my mom was there today when i cried and it went just like how your went.

I'm so mad i got way comfortable with him and got to attached. now im paying the price cuz when we dated i only focused on him and didnt even have time for friends. Now im alone and hes still got his friends plus more. 2 years is not easy specially when the BU happens so sudden and over some dumb shi*. im scared of guys people.

i'll NEVER trust a guy again. i got screwed back to back. with both relationships and trust me it took me a while to get over the 1st one and to start dating when i had met him ( both LTR).
since the BU, im always on the edge and so mad at the world

hello, it sounds quite similar to my situation

I am so sorry

but don't worry, I broke down and cried in public many times, when I was on my way home, in the train, at school, in the park etc

it got better, it has been 4 months and I still feel very hurt and miss him but I don't cry in public now at all

It's never good to give up on your hobbies and only focus on someone else, this thing happened to me too, I was slowly starting to be dependent on my ex a lot

give yourself a time, it will be good again, or I believe in it

August 11, 2012

Love, don't feel ashamed. We've all been there and done that. It's part of the healing process.

It's 2 months+ post-BU, and well, all sorts of things have made me cry. One day I was at the grocery store and I broke down over some food he and I used to eat together. Another day I broke down while putting in gas at a gas station just because we used to frequent that gas station. And well, yesterday... after finding out some horrible news, I broke down again except this time it was in the courtesy of my own home. Point of story is that it happens, and over time, it does get easier.

I know it hasn't been that long since my BU, but there was a point that I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, and heck, all I did was puke from the anxiety I was suffering. Oh, and I would not stop crying! I have no idea how many tissue boxes I went through, but let me tell you: IT DOES GET BETTER. While I may still think of him daily, my appetite is back, my sleeping schedule is normal, I'm no longer suffering from anxiety, and well, I'm getting my life back together. I have crying spells now and then, but they're not every day. Believe me, dear, you will get through this and be all the stronger for it.

And now for some inspirational music...

August 12, 2012

Love, don't feel ashamed. We've all been there and done that. It's part of the healing process.

It's 2 months+ post-BU, and well, all sorts of things have made me cry. One day I was at the grocery store and I broke down over some food he and I used to eat together. Another day I broke down while putting in gas at a gas station just because we used to frequent that gas station. And well, yesterday... after finding out some horrible news, I broke down again except this time it was in the courtesy of my own home. Point of story is that it happens, and over time, it does get easier.

I know it hasn't been that long since my BU, but there was a point that I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, and heck, all I did was puke from the anxiety I was suffering. Oh, and I would not stop crying! I have no idea how many tissue boxes I went through, but let me tell you: IT DOES GET BETTER. While I may still think of him daily, my appetite is back, my sleeping schedule is normal, I'm no longer suffering from anxiety, and well, I'm getting my life back together. I have crying spells now and then, but they're not every day. Believe me, dear, you will get through this and be all the stronger for it.

And now for some inspirational music...

<3 You pretty much said it all, how i feel and EVERYTHING im going through you're going though it as well. thanks for sharing what you're going though and for the the song.

All the replies i've gotten back on this thread is making me feel so much better already.

today has been a little better thanks to YOU ALL!

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