When will it be over?

[Gulf-Delta]

I'm still just so hurt. I still love her, and I want her back. I want to talk to her. Talk about us. Just fix everything. Clear the air.

 

I've realized that a reunion is impossible. My brain just won't accept it. These past 6 months have been like a long, continuous nightmare. Nothing helps or makes me feel better. I'm constantly depressed.

 

It's been 6 months and the only recovery I've made is that I can eat again.

 

I tihnk about calling her everyday, but I never do. I'm not ready. I know that if I do, her, or I or both of us will just end up in tears. The timing isn't right...but when will it be right? How long before emotions stabilize and everything becomes "normal" again?

 

When will the nightmare be over? Why am I still hanging onto something that will never happen?

Edited August 9, 2012 by Gulf-Delta

[Follower]

You my friend need to just get away by the sounds of it. Plan a trip and take the trip alone or with a friend doesn't matter, just take 2-7 days out of it all have a party go see some sights.

 

You need to let your brain realise she is NOT the be all and end all of this world and the best way to do this is to have some serious fun without her...

[Gulf-Delta]

You my friend need to just get away by the sounds of it. Plan a trip and take the trip alone or with a friend doesn't matter, just take 2-7 days out of it all have a party go see some sights.

 

You need to let your brain realise she is NOT the be all and end all of this world and the best way to do this is to have some serious fun without her...

 

I visited family up north...went in thinking "this will be good for me"...the minute I got there I was instantly reminded of our adventures up north. I spent the whole trip feeling like crap, and her and I actually texted back and forth during it...this was months ago, but still....it seems like nothing helps

[Squidoo]

To contact her will just set you back, trust me you're not going to hear want you want to hear. I've just done it myself and now I'm back at square one.

[Gulf-Delta]

To contact her will just set you back, trust me you're not going to hear want you want to hear. I've just done it myself and now I'm back at square one.

 

Oh I know.

 

One day, I know these feelings will fade. I will reach a point of neutrality, and I will be able to talk to her without either of us crying, or getting angry or upset. I just want to move past these feelings so I can resume my normal life.

 

At this point I'm like avoiding and dodging her because there's so many emotions involved. I want to move past that point.

[hinatticus]

I visited family up north...went in thinking "this will be good for me"...the minute I got there I was instantly reminded of our adventures up north. I spent the whole trip feeling like crap, and her and I actually texted back and forth during it...this was months ago, but still....it seems like nothing helps

 

Do you have any guy friends that are alpha? If you do, get them to tell you to man up! I would tell you but I'm a sensitive guy. If I was an alpha male I would tell you to get your head out of your ass. You sound like a girl when you talk about places or songs that remind you of her. I'm not trying to be mean, but when my boss(he's very alpha) told me to quit whining about reminders, it hit me.

I'm constantly reminded of things(we share a child), but I rarely get sad over any of it. The only thing I can't do is watch all the shows we used to watch. Which is a shame cuz they were all wicked shows. Now I'm stuck watching shows on Netflix I've never heard of. But I listen to all my music, I eat what we ate together, I wear her clothes she bought me, I even have a picture of her up still.

I dunno, maybe get your head into other things that don't remind you of her and gradually you'll be able to live life without the constant reminders being constant reminders of her.

 

Good luck.

[broken-and-lost]

gulf when you want it to be over and not a day before that m8 stay strong and keep your heart open to new things to come sorry it hurts we all hurt......