LoverOfDance Posted August 9, 2012 Posted August 9, 2012 If you know my story, you can guess that I'm talking about the guy who has a gf - the guy I've been trying to get over for 6 months now. After two months of NC, I ended up going to his class today. Not because I couldn't stop myself but because I had a moment of epiphany. I was at another studio waiting to take a class which wasn't starting in an hour when it happened. The teacher came in and I realized I was slightly attracted to him. It's just an attraction, nothing serious. I realized I couldn't run away from feelings of attraction. They are natural. I know this sounds bad, but right now I hate having those feelings. I don't know how to handle them. They become too intense too quickly even when I don't know the person I'm attracted to. They are really distracting 4 me rht now. TBH, I don't want to feel that way in another five years. I just want to focus on dance. I realized he might be the lesser of two evils. If I stay at the new studio, my attraction 4 the new guy might grow and become too intense 4 me to handle. It's nothing creepy, it's just that when I feel that way towards someone, I want to be around them all the time. Not literally, but as often as I can. I want to talk to them. When they are around, I can't focus on anything else but them. It's really difficult especially if they are your teacher, lol. I realized I can't run away from my feelings. They'll follow me wherever I go so I decided to go to his class just to avoid being around the other guy. The problem is that now, I want to keep going to his class(the guy with a gf). How do I get over this addiction. I can stay away from him but he hasn't stayed away from my mind. Do I need to see a therapist? Cause I'm thinking of doing that right now. What do you guys think? I'm I addicted?
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