robaday Posted August 9, 2012 Posted August 9, 2012 Im not sure how to put this, but Ive jerked someone around pretty badly. She has only ever wanted me, but Ive always been scared of commiting properly. Weve broken up a number of times, and always got back together. Guess, I love her, and always did. But it was the wrong time in my life for something so serious, the wrong time for me to really want to make that final commitment. I always thought, Id just be ready, ya know, ready after a few years to really give her what she wanted. And that moment, sadly has never come for me. And weve hurt each other badly in the process. And were still here, fighting every day, and Im crying as I write this, because I think this is the end, that Im going to have to stay away for good this time, because she deserves better, she deserves more from someone than I have given her.
Author robaday Posted August 9, 2012 Author Posted August 9, 2012 Sorry to give you the creeps didnt think the post was that bad! Na robs a fake name, and im nowhere near arizona! Having a period where were both questioning whether we should be in each others lives. Last night was so very sad, we were celebrating a special occasion, and it just turned into a bad argument over things that happened years ago. Its too late to turn back the clock, we both love each other, but I think were both lacking that passion that kept us going for so long.
big bear Posted August 9, 2012 Posted August 9, 2012 Im not sure how to put this, but Ive jerked someone around pretty badly. She has only ever wanted me, but Ive always been scared of commiting properly. Weve broken up a number of times, and always got back together. Guess, I love her, and always did. But it was the wrong time in my life for something so serious, the wrong time for me to really want to make that final commitment. I always thought, Id just be ready, ya know, ready after a few years to really give her what she wanted. And that moment, sadly has never come for me. And weve hurt each other badly in the process. And were still here, fighting every day, and Im crying as I write this, because I think this is the end, that Im going to have to stay away for good this time, because she deserves better, she deserves more from someone than I have given her. My story too.. In my case however, things are beyond any semblance of hope now.
hopelessromantic29 Posted August 9, 2012 Posted August 9, 2012 Rob.... Just curious bc that is my exact problem with my ex. NC for 1 month so far.... I am a woman that sounds exactly like your ex. I just wanted him to commit to me n be everything I needed him to be. He is very capable, but he let's his fears take over. My big question to you is why would you let someone you think is amazing go vs work on the issues? You say you're not good enough, but she loves U... Be that guy you can be for her! Why are you throwing everything away? I could never understand why my ex left instead of trying to make it work if I am so "amazing." your story hit close to home n I never got answers so maybe you can give me some insights. Thanks. 1
KatZee Posted August 9, 2012 Posted August 9, 2012 Im not sure how to put this, but Ive jerked someone around pretty badly. She has only ever wanted me, but Ive always been scared of commiting properly. Weve broken up a number of times, and always got back together. Guess, I love her, and always did. But it was the wrong time in my life for something so serious, the wrong time for me to really want to make that final commitment. I always thought, Id just be ready, ya know, ready after a few years to really give her what she wanted. And that moment, sadly has never come for me. And weve hurt each other badly in the process. And were still here, fighting every day, and Im crying as I write this, because I think this is the end, that Im going to have to stay away for good this time, because she deserves better, she deserves more from someone than I have given her. Sounds like my ex too. Same story. He's unable to man up to the next level. Loved each other. But he has too many demons he does not face. He actually said, "I'm selfish for staying with you... you deserve someone who will give you more." 1
KatZee Posted August 9, 2012 Posted August 9, 2012 What would it mean though if my ex pulled the same thing, only to try dating a new girl 2 months after our breakup? I believe it was two months later but he could have met her earlier... so he loved me so much and "loved me so much he had to let me go" but then thinks he can give something to someone else? Is he looking to escape the committment level we were at? Looking to start new where it wasn't so deep and serious? Looking for something that had no history and drama? Their "relationship" or whatever it was, is now over. It lasted just under a month... so it was clearly a rebound... but I just don't get it. At least this sheds some light into his thought process and he may be still hurting because of it. In my mind I think he's happy and free as a bird.
hopelessromantic29 Posted August 10, 2012 Posted August 10, 2012 Kat.... I think the same thing. He's prob happy without me n loves the freedom. I hate that I miss him so much. We r supposed to go away to Vegas this weekend n relax together, but since we broke up, I decided to take my friends instead. I couldn't get a refund for the room. I just hope I don't end up crying the entire weekend thinking about him. 1
hopelessromantic29 Posted August 10, 2012 Posted August 10, 2012 It hit close to home for me too! I guess there are a lot of guys out there who are confused with what they want... You think it's fear or simply... We r not the one? I'm not sure what I believe but I'd like to think its fear.
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