babycrapgreen Posted August 8, 2012 Posted August 8, 2012 (edited) This has spanned the last 8 years of my life. I ended up becoming really close with a friend's friend and we became best friends. We would spend 7am to 10 pm on daily basis throughout college, just hanging out and having blast. Unfortunately, I was dating someone at the time. I didn't quite see him as a boyfriend because I had a boyfriend. I've had close guy friends before but, not like him, you know when you just understand someone, it was that sort of deal. After two years of being best friends, he, subtly confessed his feelings towards me, I couldn't break up with my bf, so he completely cuts off all communication. I couldn't be that person who breaks up with someone for another person, it's just not me.I come to find out he ends up dating his friend's girlfriend, 6-9months later, after I refused to break up with my bf. Yeah, drama, right? The next few years, we had little to no interaction, at friend's parties, one or two word exchanges, that's it. It was awkward to say the least. We were suppose to hangout and talk things out in 2007, 1 year after no communication, but, I don't think his gf at the time allowed him to, understandably. I received an apology email regarding how he handled the situation around the same time, I saved it but, didn't have the heart to email him back. I didn't want his gf to think I was trying to start something. Time passes, and in the mean time, I would get random greetings, I mean, the most obscure holidays to the major ones. I would receive random emails of notes we wrote back in college to eachother, in 2010, I would reply back, no response in return. I find out he broke up with his gf in 2010, I finally got the courage to reply to his email back in 2007 and apologize myself in fall 2011. I genuinely missed him, everything about him. I didn't get a reply til this year. He gave me his new number and I, text messaged him in July. We ended up text messaging daily since then. Reminiscing for the most part, I mean he remembers everything and I do too. From the most insignificant times to the most funniest. We finally hung out this past Sunday, I was nervous. I'm sure the tables have turned in regards to feelings. We laughed a lot and more reminiscing but, you can tell we were awkward at times. He didn't mention any girl he was dating. In fact, he only mentioned his ex because I asked. I'm in love with him. I want to make sure it's not him holding a grudge. I just don't know where to start. How do I know he still has feelings for me? How should I act around him? What signs to look for? Edited August 8, 2012 by babycrapgreen
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