M30USA Posted August 6, 2012 Posted August 6, 2012 I separated from my wife 6 months ago. The marriage was toxic, she assaulted me, I had a porn problem...the list goes on. Today is harder than any day yet--even the day when I first saw the divorce papers. I had to stand literally right next to her at our baby's church dedication. I don't think she was even planning on telling me about it, except that I first told her our baby would be dedicated at the church in my town, afterwhich she immediately informed me it would be happening in merely 36 hours in her town! I was like...WTH! So I sucked it up and just went. I'm not sure if she was shocked to see me just walk up there and stand right next to her. I am their father. I am supposedly the head of the house and she just underhanded me like that. But still standing right there next to her was hard. It's the first time since our separation that we've even stood in the same vicinity at all. We didn't speak at all. I went there just for my baby to be part of his life. I'm just surprised that I can have such a delayed grief response like this. I would have thought it would come much earlier. I guess it didn't fully sink in yet. I'm kind of just sitting around in a depressed state, trying to remember to eat.
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