pinkbutterfly Posted August 4, 2012 Posted August 4, 2012 So...I have really only had one relationship in my life...my soon to be-ex husband. We dated for a year and a half before we got married. My first time ever having sex was on our honeymoon. He was my first real boyfriend (with the exception of little middle school/high school things that were never even close to serious - like nothing beyond holding hands and two that I ever even kissed). So we were married for almost 12 years. I did have an affair (which he knows about and forgave - NOT the reason for our divorce). The affair wasn't even a relationship -- it was just sex. That is the sum total of my experience with relationship and sex. So now...we are separated...waiting to divorce (SC has a law you have to be separated for a year before you can divorce). Anyway, I met a man last week...and we hit it off. We have spent hours talking...we went out once, then I went to see him after he got off work a couple nights later (it was a bit late to actually go "out"). I made it clear that I'm not ready for a "relationship" -- he asked what I wanted to do. I told him what I would LIKE to do is continue to see him and get to know him...but I wasn't sure when I would be ready for an actual relationship. He asked if I would be seeing other men and I said no. I figure if I'm not ready for a relationship, I shouldn't be out seeking other guys, right? But I really like this man. He was ok with that. We kissed on our second evening together. It was amazing...soft, gentle, but passionate...not forceful at all. I don't think I have ever been kissed like that before...EVER...it was simply AMAZING. So after Thursday night - I can't stop thinking of him. He's out of town for the weekend. He invited me to come along with him but I had school work to do. I did tell him that I can go with him in a couple of weeks. And I want to. We are planning to see each other tomorrow night as long as all my school work is done (it's online, and everything is due Sunday nights). I guess I just don't know what to do in this situation. I am beginning to feel more and more that maybe I DO want a relationship. I want to be with him. I want my first time with him to be more than merely sex...I want it to be special...if sex with him is anything like his kissing then it will probably be amazing as well. Thursday night we talked about sex...a little. I don't know how to "act" -- I don't want to call or text too much...but I want him to know that I am interested. Because I am VERY interested. I might be going away with him to the beach in a couple of weeks for the weekend...I'm guessing we will probably have sex then...not sure if we should before that? I mean, I WANT to...I REALLY want to. I just want to make sure he doesn't think I am too easy or anything like that. I just don't know what to do...and I don't want to screw things up. Any advice would be GREATLY appreciated. Thanks!
TaraMaiden Posted August 4, 2012 Posted August 4, 2012 You know what...? You need to tell him exactly what you just told us. Jeesh, we complicate things so much... the minute sex appears on the horizon, we intellectualise it, try to rationalise it, and create such a complex woven mesh of justifications.,... It's sex! It's fun, it makes us feel good, it's enjoyable, and it's commonplace! By all means tell him what's on your mind, but don't confuse sexual desire for a match made in heaven - just focus on having the time of your life!!
Author pinkbutterfly Posted August 4, 2012 Author Posted August 4, 2012 You know what...? You need to tell him exactly what you just told us. Jeesh, we complicate things so much... the minute sex appears on the horizon, we intellectualise it, try to rationalise it, and create such a complex woven mesh of justifications.,... It's sex! It's fun, it makes us feel good, it's enjoyable, and it's commonplace! By all means tell him what's on your mind, but don't confuse sexual desire for a match made in heaven - just focus on having the time of your life!! Thanks...I guess I have something to talk about with him when I see him on Sunday LOL... And that's great to remember -- not to confuse sexual desire for a match made in heaven. Just because we have sex...doesn't mean I have to stay with him, or marry him, or anything like that. See...one of the reasons I got married to the ex...was because I thought I had to be married to have sex. I am not that naive anymore.
yongyong Posted August 4, 2012 Posted August 4, 2012 let me be honest. your pussy is not worth that much. your husband had banged it for 12 years. you gave it to another guy too. you don't have to treat that like prime asset 12 years ago. just let him bang you and see what happens.
Author pinkbutterfly Posted August 4, 2012 Author Posted August 4, 2012 let me be honest. your pussy is not worth that much. your husband had banged it for 12 years. you gave it to another guy too. you don't have to treat that like prime asset 12 years ago. just let him bang you and see what happens. on the contrary...it IS mine...and it IS worth a lot. so yeah, I did give it to another guy...it was a mistake. I'm not planning to make that mistake again.
Author pinkbutterfly Posted August 4, 2012 Author Posted August 4, 2012 pink.... paynotenshun'..... yeah...thanks.
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