JayLove8 Posted August 4, 2012 Posted August 4, 2012 its almost 5 months now, we dont even live in the same city anymore but i just cant get her out of my head. nothing in my life seems worth living. i cant stand the fact that i will never have her in my arms again. i cant stand the fact that someone else is doing the things ive done with her. i cant F*CKING stand the fact that someone is doing IT with her... I mean she was my love. she would always tell me how she loved me when we did it, how she couldnt even imagine doing it with someone else. I dont wanna seem shallow but it kills me inside to know someone else is doing all the things weve done together. it kills me knowing that someone else will replace all the feelings i gave to her. that i just seem to be a distant memory. that she loved me, that she loved me so much she couldnt sleep without me. and now she is happy to be without me. its 5 months now. 5 months that i havent seen her. i know that she is gone for ever now. but why cant i let go? what is wrong with me? i just cant get it out of my head. i dont wanna lose her. i miss her so much. it brings tears in my eyes just thinking of how lovely she looked at me, telling me nothing really matters besides us. why is life so unfair? why is life giving us people, just to take them from us?! please dont tell me that happens for a reason or to give us experience until a better person comes. she was perfect. i messed it up. i cant live without her at this moment. i cant think of anything else besides her. its 5 months... why is it so hard? why cant no one answer me that? why cant i f*cking push the thought of a guy doing it to her out of my head. why cant i push her completely out of my head?! we were perfect together... why am i the one suffering now. why did she just move one. life is hard guys...
Canadian731 Posted August 4, 2012 Posted August 4, 2012 You say you were perfect together, if you truly were would you not be together right now? Just try to remember that breakups happen for a reason, whether it was her feelings changing or yours at this point it's irrelevant, you are completely over idealizing both your ex and your relationship, she isn't this perfect human being and your relationship wasn't perfect either. Trust me my friend one day you will find a woman whom you love more then you could ever imagine and just think to yourself "if I had stayed with the other one I never would have found this one" I wish you the best I'm currently 2months into NC and breakup and feeling pretty good about myself right now, you will get to this point it just takes more tike for others, btw mine was a 4year relationship to put some perspective on it
Author JayLove8 Posted August 4, 2012 Author Posted August 4, 2012 thanks for your answer man.. youre right there might be a better one in the future.. but it just hurts so much to know that i imagine someone else being with her. i think that is one of the biggest obstacles i face in terms of getting over her. we were doing everything, i dont wanna go too much into detail, everybody knows what im talking about... but imagining another guy doing it with her, maybe even better, just giving her the feelings i gave her is making me crazy. its the thing that hurts the most. and i just dont know what to do to get it out of my head. knowing someone kissing her as passionately as i did letting her forget me even more.. or doing other more intimate things i did with her. just erase me out of her head. replacing me with someone else. as if i never existed. she always told me how most of her friends broke up with their bfs and theyre f-ing around now... i think she wanted to try that too. it hurts so much. i always hoped she would realize that this is not the golden ticket and eventually realize that a relationship is more important.. i just cant get it out of my head..
Canadian731 Posted August 4, 2012 Posted August 4, 2012 You just have to do other things to occupy your mind, if you have no mental stimulation then your mind will wander onto things like that. What you have to realize though is that the relationship has run it's course, I think you are still holding on to the hope that she will contact you one day and ask you to come back, I was like thatthe first month but what you have to realize is that even if she were to come back the same problems will still be there unless things have changed majorly.
Floored Posted August 4, 2012 Posted August 4, 2012 Agree with Canadian- keep yourself occupied. Preferably things that give you happiness and joy, but even if you hate it (taking doubles at work, running til you want to cry, painting your lawn green) you're still putting time between her and you, and giving your brain an emotional break. It took some time to fall in love with her, it will take some time to fall out of love too; just because it's over doesn't mean the feelings dry up overnight, even if we all wish they could.
Dblock10 Posted August 4, 2012 Posted August 4, 2012 yeah you have to stop thinking about someone else with her. start thinking about yourself. your a man, you can find another piece of meat to have fun with. i get that you cant stand to think of her sleeping with someone else. but its life man, it happens yeah she may be or has had someone else to have sex with but it wont be like how you slept with her, or better. if you loved each other, sex when you were with her will mean a lot more. you say you cant lose her.. but you already have. i know thats tough to hear but the sooner you accept the situation thats when you will begin to move on bro. 1
Author JayLove8 Posted August 5, 2012 Author Posted August 5, 2012 thanks guys.. this was really a tough day. i was almost about to contact her.. your words help me a lot. its really tough, but i guess thats what life is... i just hope to get all the good times i had with her ten times better with someone else..
Author JayLove8 Posted August 5, 2012 Author Posted August 5, 2012 today was a bad morning again... i dont understand it. i dont get it. why is it so hard for me to overcome the feelings for her. i feel so bad. i feel so sad. i cant think of anything besides her. i think of all the mistakes i made. its 4 months now and i still cant think of anything besides her. i miss her so bad. i miss her voice. i cant understand how she became so cold. it hurts, it brings tears to my eyes everytime. i cant cope with the fact that im just a memory to her. an experience. that she will find someone else. that shes not even missing me! i just cant let go. im so afraid of not finding anyone else. i dream every night of our time. it hurts everytime to wake up without her. i hate seeing other couples. i hate seeing them. i regret my mistakes so bad. she was my angel. i didnt have any experience to give her what she needed. please dont tell me that i now have the experience for someone else. all i want is her. and its never gonna happen again. she broke my heart. she was the one who was always afraid of me doing that to her. and now im the one sitting here, crying like a teenager. sorry had to vent a little...
chrisusarmy2005 Posted August 5, 2012 Posted August 5, 2012 Im the same way and i know exactly how you feel. My gf of 4+ years broke up with me and she still tells me everything.The hardest thing is to live in the same place,but nowhere to go yet. But,still it sucks to see her going with guys that do all the same things i did with her. It sucks
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