It's over but I'm still crazy over him !

[RomanceLow]

I was in a relationship with my boyfriend in the navy for four months and he was everything I ever wanted. I met him online and i fell for him fast. He hung out with me practically every day. He would take me out and tell me he wanted to show me off.. He cuddled and always made me feel greatHe was charming and adorable.When I first met him he would text me good morning and good night every day. He talked to me about his life and I just thought he was amazing. He was in the navy and I loved hanging out with him . In the last month he got busy with school and I always told him he never spent time with me.He said he couldn't spent this much time with anyone no matter who I was. He said he wasn't going to change it just wasn't him One day, I saw that he had posted an ad online that was looking for somebody and I told him that's insulting to me it's like he didn't care about our relationship. So he apologized and said he'd stop. A month passed and he added another ad online soliciting sex with a different age thinking I wouldn't see it. I emailed him using another email and he responded asking if I was down for sex fwb . When I finally told him it was me I broke up with him and he apologized, but we were broken up. I went a week without talking to him. And one day my car's battery died near his home.. And I called him bcs as a bf he was always so sweet. He came and rushed over and helped me. I could see he was sad. He returned my clothes to me. And I asked him how work was and he said good. He jumped my car and I thanked him. I then texted him and told him I forgave him even if he wasn't asking for it. And that id still like to be friends.. He replied and told me he meant it when he was sorry and that he feels bad about that situation. And that friends sounds good to him... Why do I miss him so much though he thought about cheating on me and he would have If he would have gotten a chance..do u think I should continue to talk to him and show him what he's lost... Do u think he misses me?He is 29 and I'm 21 and ppl tell me once a cheater always a cheater.. And he's to old to be playing these games... But I feel like in a year or two I'd love to get back to him... I just want him to mature... He hasn't text me or called me since the break up... Do u think he moved on and why do I still are so much ? Should I care though he kinda cheated