have been in emotional shock bumped into ex and this happened. he lied.

[zanzi]

He has no regrets, its only been a month two weeks of which I did NC.

 

and he's already gone back to his babies mother. Again. She dumps him all the time. She's feral.

I ended up talking to him before she comes back and told him I loved him still. Thought he would miss me in this time, but I was only a rebound. he wants to be back with his ex/now gf and her baby as a "family." I asked him if he loved her and he said he had " found" his love for her again.

Eh, Im pretty sure he loved her throughout me and his entire so called relationship. Why the hell does this happen to me.

I saw her she is disgusting looking.

My thoughts are all over the place. he lied to me throughout whole relationship, used me to get over her when he dumped me. He even said **** about marriage, a future together. Why would he say that to a rebound, does he just hate women?

 

I never knew the real him. the person I saw was loathsome, cowardly, avoided giving straight answers, whiney, weak, and the two of them together looked like something out of a rob zombie horror film.

 

Want to forget that I ever knew him/ that he ever existed. Wish I'd never met him. When I saw what he had done, I knew that he was not the person I knew, he is someone else now. A coward.

 

Help I am so ****ed up. I feel totally ****ed up in the head by this. I am in shock. I stayed over at a friends house last night and haven't had time alone to just...I don't know. What the.....

what the.....

I couldn't have expected anything less is the shameful thing, I never imagined he would go back to her. I guess part of its for the baby. am so f*cking gullible. Iv'e never regretted meeting someone as much as I regret meeting that liar. How could he hide his true colors from me for so long and how could I believe him when he said he only talked to his ex because he "had to." I always used to ask him what was going on and to my face he'd say " I love you." but it was a f*cking gaping huge lie just like the gaping hole in my bloody self esteem.

 

whatever. He screwed me over mentally and emotionally. Yesterday was a huge mind-f*ck. I am still mind f*cked by it.

 

Please don't say I told you so I am too horrified to take it right now. And wondering why why why was I another guys rebound? I'm never the girlfriend I'm always the rebound. Am I doomed to stare forever into the eyes of a guy while Im f*cking him and know that he's thinking about sarah, or kimberly, or rachel,( these exes they are always called sarah kimberely and rachel)?

 

Im just looking for support.

 

Oh trust me Im moving on alright, I am horrified by what happened and hate that they live in my town now. He's so tactless to move her here with him. They can f*ck off. They are a disgusting looking couple.