nevadagirl Posted July 31, 2012 Posted July 31, 2012 (edited) ok so ive been through all of it at this point. The sobbing. The loss of appetite. The overeat ing. The Facebook mistakes. The back to square one. The back to square ones again. The holy **** why did I talk to him. The vows of NC. The broken vows. The vowing again. The delusions that I mattered. The months of silence. The starting to feel whole again. The knee jerk reaction to more contact out of the blue and what you'd think would be the final part...the discovery that he has moved on. For real. With someone..."better". I did the whole comparison thing. I'm so tired of all the **** all of the stages I'm tired physically and mentally. This time a few weeks ago I was fine. I don't date and I don't want to. I want to do what I was doing a few weeks ago which was whatever I wanted. But the ex he just finds ways to mess up the little piece of space I carved for myself...he stalked and found my meetup account. Ok so so what we had words and I said I don't want anything to do with you and he was all basically k np smiley face but then he messaged my roommate {someone he is not even remotely friends with and I don't know how he'd know we re roommates again) and he didn't SAY anything except what's up but. Now... I am paranoid he'd bring his girlfriend somewhere he knows ill be. Not because I matter but because he's evil. I know its stupid I know this but I've gone from doing whatever I want to feeling like I need to hide again. I can't see him with his girlfriend. I can feign indifference with my silence online but if I saw him in person... Just tell me I'm paranoid. Please. He was bored and lonely cuz his gf was out of town that's all it was. Right? Edited July 31, 2012 by nevadagirl
MCMLXXXIX Posted July 31, 2012 Posted July 31, 2012 Seems like none of you really moved on. He is being immature. Do what is good for you and forget about him. That's easier said then done, but the way you describe him, it does not make a nice picture.
todreaminblue Posted August 2, 2012 Posted August 2, 2012 ok so ive been through all of it at this point. The sobbing. The loss of appetite. The overeat ing. The Facebook mistakes. The back to square one. The back to square ones again. The holy **** why did I talk to him. The vows of NC. The broken vows. The vowing again. The delusions that I mattered. The months of silence. The starting to feel whole again. The knee jerk reaction to more contact out of the blue and what you'd think would be the final part...the discovery that he has moved on. For real. With someone..."better". I did the whole comparison thing. I'm so tired of all the **** all of the stages I'm tired physically and mentally. This time a few weeks ago I was fine. I don't date and I don't want to. I want to do what I was doing a few weeks ago which was whatever I wanted. But the ex he just finds ways to mess up the little piece of space I carved for myself...he stalked and found my meetup account. Ok so so what we had words and I said I don't want anything to do with you and he was all basically k np smiley face but then he messaged my roommate {someone he is not even remotely friends with and I don't know how he'd know we re roommates again) and he didn't SAY anything except what's up but. Now... I am paranoid he'd bring his girlfriend somewhere he knows ill be. Not because I matter but because he's evil. I know its stupid I know this but I've gone from doing whatever I want to feeling like I need to hide again. I can't see him with his girlfriend. I can feign indifference with my silence online but if I saw him in person... Just tell me I'm paranoid. Please. He was bored and lonely cuz his gf was out of town that's all it was. Right? My teenage girls have facebook, one of them is in a loving relationship and her being on facebook is fine, the other younger girl suffers from depression and her using facebook is a mistake,because she makes unsafe an uninformed choices I myself only used my facebook account to contact my girls and speak to friends who I have known for years who have been through hard times .Your boyfriend is contacting you through facebook and it is making you uncomfortable, I also feel uncomfortable with facebook as my ex is with a new partner and she now has added my girls and is sending them messages, so because my girls would get upset if I deleted my account I just dont go on there anymore.Go no contact with your ex delete him from facebook for sure,move on with your life and have fun, you are holding on to him because you love him he is not considering how you feel. losing friends is hard as I have had to cut off from mine,you don't need to, just delete him. I wish you happiness and hope it works out for you........deb
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