zanzi Posted July 30, 2012 Posted July 30, 2012 the day my ex left, he went to a town jut 20 mins away but I have this paicked feeling he will move on in couple of weeks from that town, as he moves around often. He completely ignores me. I remember the way he spoke of his previous ex before me and think he must be saying the same things about me. That I'm a "silly woman" and a "selfish bitch" and I " messed with his heart." just like she was. He said she was " not worth his time." Now he's treating me the way he did her. I deserve better then that. I'm not those things, he chose to leave me. I had no way of going out there to see him again even if just once more. No matter what he would say or do, it would beat never seeing him again, which is what will happen now. He even rang me up the morning after he left, and a week after and said he was stupid, regretted leaving, loved me still. But then he broke up with me saying he needed to "find himself." I feel like if I dont do something, I'll never see him again...he drifted away and theres nothing I can do about it. Everyone says I will feel better, but when... I dont want to never see him again. I would rather see him and have him tell me to my face " I dont love you." and call me all those things he called his ex to me, then to never see him again ever. It feels like a horrible sentence to be doled out just because you made mistakes.
Follower Posted July 30, 2012 Posted July 30, 2012 It will get better when you let it get better not before not after only at the point you finally let go its hard its painful and its a long journey but the end of the road is there. On a side note relationships are a cruel and evil thing when they dont work out why? Its 9/10 in my experience the wrong person who ends up suffering its usually the person who put in the most effort did the hardest work and loved the most that gets punted to the curb while the other person walks off Scot free... What a cruel and unusual world this is., 1
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