it's hurting worse to contact him after breakup?

[lovehurtsxx]

hello, me and my EX dated for two years and we broke up ten days ago. from that day, i have been so depressed. i try to talk to him every day (not constantly) but out of boredom. i think about him so much, i cried alot in the beginning but now i feel like i cant cry anymore. i am going out with my friends, and having a good time without him. but the problem is once i am home at night, or when i get off work and i am all alone. the loneliness slaps me in the face. i feel so alone and un loved when i am alone, and i want to talk to him so badly. i usually will just facetime him and our conversations start out friendly and we just chat about our day but then i always get offended by a comment he might say and we always end up fighting about the breakup..and then i am even more sad than i was before i contact him. i feel like it is a cycle, and everytime before i call or text him, i think to myself "this is not going to help anything" but i have no self control. he told me today he has already moved on, and talking to other women. hearing that made me lose all control. i called him continuously asking how we got over me so quickly..and all this anger makes me send him hurtful messages telling him how i regret everything i went through with him. i feel like the last two years of my life was a waste..and im really starting to wonder if he loved me as much as i thought he did. please help, how do i stop this cycle of contacting him. i want NC but i just cannot push myself to do it..

[yogamobb]

Think of you in the long run. You must start to heal. Accept the situation and nc. Its not easy but the effect will be residually positive for you.

[edelveis]

keep nc.Its necessary if you really want to heal and move on...It might be hard in the beggining but with time you ll get used to.Stay strong and keep your dignity.After all yourself is above everything else..do the best for you