zanzi Posted July 30, 2012 Posted July 30, 2012 No one to talk to. Dont feel like talking. Sick, miserable. Over someone who doesnt care. Always tired. My freinds seem to have all moved on since I spent most of my time with the ex, so I have no real mates now. Nobody to talk to. I just want to stop feeling like roadkill all the time. Hard to get up in the mornings. Deep depression. Have had depression for about four or more likely five years. Reason why he left me. Just want it to stop. I want to feel nothing too. 1
dhyan Posted July 30, 2012 Posted July 30, 2012 I'm feeling kind of lonely today too. Trying to ride the wave and continue to look for good things in life to make life better... 1
TG1 Posted July 30, 2012 Posted July 30, 2012 Yes I feel lonely too especially after the fight I had with my girlfriend, I don't even know if I should call her that anymore, well I guess like you I am also feeling lonely, feeling angry, depressed, and wanting to lash out at the world but I am choosing to bottle it all up inside and just physically shut down 1
Author zanzi Posted July 30, 2012 Author Posted July 30, 2012 that makes three of us. I just want to be myself again. To not have my brain re-looping all these desperate, unrealistic thoughts about wanting to see him again. ( he ignores me now, refuses to speak to me at all.) Dont you just wish you could wake up and not think about them, but just be oblivious and happy again? 1
PainsChains Posted July 30, 2012 Posted July 30, 2012 Sorry to hear you feel that way. Depression is hard. I've sunk into a depression these past four months too. I actually became so emotional with grief that I couldn't function and lost my job. I was sitting alone in a cafe when it opened in the morning all day until it closed at night, just to be around people. Can't be at home because it reminds me of ex. And it's lonely there. I think I'm coming out of it though. I'm starting to realize I have to take small steps to live my life and make it better. If I do that there's a better chance I'll be happy again. I've started doing some exercise. Developed more of a routine with my day. Trust me, what I'm doing isn't much. The steps are really small. But they help. Take more and more until you're up and about all the time doing things and being normal again. There are reasons to move forward even if you can't see them yet. The fog will lift, and with it your spirits. 1
TG1 Posted July 30, 2012 Posted July 30, 2012 that makes three of us. I just want to be myself again. To not have my brain re-looping all these desperate, unrealistic thoughts about wanting to see him again. ( he ignores me now, refuses to speak to me at all.) Dont you just wish you could wake up and not think about them, but just be oblivious and happy again? Yes I want to feel that way but right now I can't because it is just so damn hard 1
todreaminblue Posted July 30, 2012 Posted July 30, 2012 I hope that you feel better soon.I have depression too, that deep dragging feeling I have been wandering around on LS reading threads, answering posts where i can.Deleting a lot and finding another thread where I delete again.I don't want to see my ex anymore or talk to him anymore I feel a bit sick when i think about him actually, he wanted me to be sneaky and sly, send pictures write my erotica to him(he is with someone else) like I used to do.....as soon as he said those things he wanted me to be sneaky,sly I wondered why? why would he want me to do that its against everything i feel and think.The only thing I can think of is because he knew my past he thought I could just go back there because I enjoy sex with him.He could just hurt my heart so coldly and that's when I want to throw up...anyway I am meant to be talking about your situation. The length of time you have depression for, is not a good prognosis if you don't get help please seek professional help.You can make irrational decisions do things you would never normally do, spiral into a life that you dont want full of sadness.Then the real trouble starts, seek help while you can.You wont regret it. Here's a hug from me to you.....deb
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