rebeccah413 Posted July 29, 2012 Posted July 29, 2012 It's been 1.5 years since our BAD break up (and 1 yr no contact) and about 2 two years since not being "official". about 1 year after our friedship completely ended he starts dating a girl (that I had always had bits of jealousy over...guess my intuition was right but he spent a year single so I'm not that upset by this...honestly it feela better than if he were with a stranger). They've been together for 8 months but long distance (!) now he's going to grad school even farther away from her. 1 week before my graduation I saw him at a party, a day after graduation he emailed me for the first contact in a year congratulating me on grauation and future plans and wishing me all the best. Responded cordially. No contact since. That email set me back for two weeks, found out Who he was dating at that time too and that killed me for a day....yesterday, two months later, in a fit of dark rage I checked his blog and saw him postage cute pics of them together, how he just wants rodlike with her, her picture is his desktop background etc... To top it all off I've moved 3000 miles away from him in a different country! I thought I be over it by now but I spent all yesterday and this morning crying. The worst part of it is is not knowing usage is more appeal than me. We were our greatest loves so far but had a rocky passionate relationship. What I this strange long distance thing? Comfort? I hate that I'm notthe person he thinks of or who makes him happy. But yet we both needed a break, an all the signs to getting back together maybe years from now suggest us each having new relationships is a good thing... Just have to keep staying away I guess. Seeing the details and hurting so kuh makes it easier to stay away, and I'm glad he's happy but JEEZE when will this end! I'm so dumb!
haribogumsnickers Posted July 29, 2012 Posted July 29, 2012 Keep checking his blog until you get bored and realize you're wasting your time.
Author rebeccah413 Posted July 29, 2012 Author Posted July 29, 2012 Oops sorry about the awkward auotcorrect typos... I meant posting, rodlike =skype, and usage appeal is supposed to say "if she is more special than me" Thank god for no contact even with this minor set back. I had 9 months of serious depression after losing my best friend and, I thought, "the one." it was a big deal he emailed me after seeing me at that party, there was A LOT of bad blood... Yet we always manage to forgive each other even if we are both keeping a lot of space. And I def need space so it's good he's dating someone... When hrs sad and single I get sad too for him and makes me more likel to reach out and want to make him happy again. Bad bad news! And good perspective, wasting my time is just what it is.
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