Dammit. I hate setbacks. ><

[AlexanderJames]

If you've been following my story here's the latest. If you haven't it's too long to sum up on one thread haha.

 

Hadn't recieved any messages from my ex since the Wednesday night one about her reminiscing about crap we used to get up to.

 

I went to a club last night with heaps of mates. Was hoping I wouldnt see her but it's her favourite club as well as mine so /:

I was outside in the smoking area talkin to lots of people I knew when I looked up and saw my ex's sister death staring me. Sure enough my ex was with her two. I had been catching up with an old female friend and a couple of her girlfriends at the time I saw her so luckily it would have looked like I was chatting them up haha.

 

Anyway seeing her face really bummed me out. It was good though because the first thing I thought when I saw her was "hmm she doesn't look all that attractive tonight". But it still put me in a down mood though.

I walked passed her to get inside. She said nothing to me and I said nothing to her. Didn't even look at her. I was on the dance floor for a while then headed to the VIP lounge (I was a VIP ) to get a drink.

Of course she was standing at the bottom of the stairs to the VIP lounge dancing on her own when I got there. She knew people up there so I'm guessing shebeas waiting to see if she was allowed up.. As I was walking up she turned to talk to her friends and didn't see me which was good because I had to literally squeeze past her to walk upstairs.

 

I got to the top of the stairs and all the people up there saw me and came running over hugging me and dancing with me. I glanced down the staircase while everyone was swarming me and saw her looking at me from the bottom. I don't know if she had been watching me the whole time or only just realized it was me but as soon as I made eye contact she spun right round in a 180 and walked away.

 

The bit that kinda bummed me the most, is that I had expected to get a txt message from her during the night after she'd seen me. Either saying something like 'you're looking sexy' like she has in the past or even just something like having a good time? Or having fun with those girls? Or something. I guess cause I'd gotten used to her trying to txt me all the time that I figured her being drunk and seeing me looking good that if she was going to say anything to me she wouldn't be able to resist. But she sent me nothing.

All good though I had to fight some serious urges to a) message her b) go up to her and c) throw up.

I ended up just going home shortly after. I figure I'd had a good night leading up to seeing her. Why let it turn to **** by torturing myself.

 

 

Anyway it's midday the next day and still nothing from her. Obviously im feeling blue or I wouldnt be posting on here. But I suppose that's a good thing. Means she either really was taking the piss and has gotten bored with me or she's just moving on like me. I should be grateful im not finding myself struggling to resist the urge to reply to her crap on a daily basis.

 

On a side note the new girl I'm interested in was at the club last night too. She was so excited to see me she came running up and said hi and danced with me.

I ended up telling her I was interested in her. Not so bluntly of course haha. She said she wants to talk to me about it later today. She put a status on fb thismorning saying "the moment when you realise you've fallen for someone"

But I think that might just be a coverup so she can say sorry to me but she has fallen for someone else haha. No biggy though. It was either try and see what happens or leave it and nothing happen anyway

 

Cheers LS I'll keep you posted

[YorickBrown]

Nice!

 

I dunno why you would think that was a setback ....you should have gone there somehow "prepared"

 

So you think you can dance huh? Did you do the Lambada?!?

[steveblack]

dude nice job. honestly i probably would not of been that calm

[hinatticus]

You held your own Alex. I wouldnt necessarily call it a setback. You still have tiny lingering feelings is all. I bet your ex is feeling worse than you!

 

I had what I thought would've been a crazy setback. Turns out it turned into some positive conversation. Pm me if you want the juicy details. It's actually kinda funny.

 

Anyway, keep on keeping your held up high.

[AlexanderJames]

Thanks for the thoughts guys

 

I just think it was a bit of a setback in that it got me feeling crap and thinking of her again. But you're all right I guess it went well. It sure could have gone a lot worse.

 

And I couldn't have really gone prepared. I thought I was prepared but then I saw her and bam haha. Ah well it happened. No harm done

[Sameold]

you're going to feel like this dude. By now she probably realises the game is up and this is another part of the moving on process I guess.

 

In a funny way you ignoring her meant you had some power, so her not texting you has balanced that off. Ultimately complete imdifference is the object and in time you will both get there.

[zanzi]

I wish I would run into my ex in a club, no matter how awkward it would be.

Starting to forget what he looked like...

[DMS]

Hey bud, sorry it got you down, been thinking of my ex more than usual today as well. However you did well and it is likely that a new relationship is right around the corner.

[AlexanderJames]

Thanks guys. No zanzi it's much better going out and not seeing them if you ask me.

Going out isnt cheap and when you're having a great time then get bummed into leaving it sucks!

 

I went to a club again last night, on the other side of town. One my ex doesnt go to haha. Went with my housemates and a bunch of close friends. We tend to go the this club every week cause it's just down the road from my house.

Ex wasn't there yay! Was standing by the front door talking to a mate who words security and someone even better walks passed. The dick who dated my ex before I did. I've never got along with him he's a wanker.

 

It didnt make me sad or ruin my night or anything. But I did have to fight some serious urges to start a fight with him. He treated my ex so badly, 100 times worse than I did. And he seems to think that he can talk smack about me and say I'm a dick to my ex cause I hurt her too. f***ing hypocrite. Luckily he's all talk and he's afraid of me. Everytime he saw me he would go to the other side of the club so he wasnt around me. Which is good because after the night before I was itching to get rid of some agression haha.

 

All in all I had a great night though. It's a shame that both nights of my weekend (the only nights I get to let myself go and have a bit of fun in between work) had to involve things that reminded me of my ex. But one bad weekend down. Maybe I wont go to these places for a while. Plenty of other nightclubs out there with dancefloors for me to dominate

[livelife]

Thanks guys. No zanzi it's much better going out and not seeing them if you ask me.

Going out isnt cheap and when you're having a great time then get bummed into leaving it sucks!

 

I went to a club again last night, on the other side of town. One my ex doesnt go to haha. Went with my housemates and a bunch of close friends. We tend to go the this club every week cause it's just down the road from my house.

Ex wasn't there yay! Was standing by the front door talking to a mate who words security and someone even better walks passed. The dick who dated my ex before I did. I've never got along with him he's a wanker.

 

It didnt make me sad or ruin my night or anything. But I did have to fight some serious urges to start a fight with him. He treated my ex so badly, 100 times worse than I did. And he seems to think that he can talk smack about me and say I'm a dick to my ex cause I hurt her too. f***ing hypocrite. Luckily he's all talk and he's afraid of me. Everytime he saw me he would go to the other side of the club so he wasnt around me. Which is good because after the night before I was itching to get rid of some agression haha.

 

All in all I had a great night though. It's a shame that both nights of my weekend (the only nights I get to let myself go and have a bit of fun in between work) had to involve things that reminded me of my ex. But one bad weekend down. Maybe I wont go to these places for a while. Plenty of other nightclubs out there with dancefloors for me to dominate

 

 

Alexxxx. I'm having a weak moment can you come to my thread:( I deleted my facebook again haha but I need some of your calming words!

[AlexanderJames]

The new girl on the scene says she wants to hang out with me more but doesnt wanna get involved with anyone just yet cause her feelings are all over the place.

 

Her loss though. Plus on the bright side now I can start applying for jobs interstate and moving away

[edelveis]

its not such a setback..you are doing well dude..that was something expected i guess.i think now you can move even further!