ForwardThinker Posted July 27, 2012 Posted July 27, 2012 So I broke NC today after 24 days. I had been having a hard time this week. I just sent her a massage saying "Hi" and that's it. Not sure why but I do want to move on. We broke up because she was moving, we weren't at a stage where I would move with, and there were some differences in us that didn't support longfevity. Proximity is destined to keep us apart (as she's across the country). I believe I had been feeling a lot of the normal symptoms after a breakup. Rejection, loneliness, emptiness, etc. I'm not sure what I was trying to accomplish with my message of "Hi" but I sent it. Not sure if she will even respond or how I would respond to her response (if she does). I'm just trying to move forward, come to peace with myself, and move on with my life. I was overwhelmed with ruminating thoughts and thought this might help put them to rest. I don't know. I guess we'll see. Whats done is done, right?
Author ForwardThinker Posted July 30, 2012 Author Posted July 30, 2012 I sent the "Hi" when I was heading out of town for the weekend to spend with friends. Had a great weekend and on my way home still hadn't received a response. THEN I sent a 2nd massage: Me: Maybe I reached out a bit too soon for you or you really don't have anything to say to me. Curiousity and occasional ruminating thoughts lead me to wonder how things are going. Hope your doing well. Her:Reached out? Is that what "hi" means? To be honest, I'm not ok with how you acted. I'm not ok with it. I'm not ok with you. My life is good. I hope the same for you. I don't want to be friends. I don't want anything from you. Then two exchanges of destructive communication. The funny thing is I don't really care. I think it might have drawn closure to the situation and I won't rumminate romantic memories of out past any longer. So that's good. I did want to move on though. I think it was hard for me to let go of the hope for love I attached to the relationship rather than actually being in love.
jgregory4614 Posted August 1, 2012 Posted August 1, 2012 Wow! That was harsh on her part. Sounds like there's more to this story than what your telling, right Foward?
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