Ponzzz Posted July 26, 2012 Posted July 26, 2012 After a bit of thought and digging deep within myself, I have found that I cannot forgive my ex or become a friend to her at this moment in time. I forgave her for the breakup but I have not yet forgiven her for how she went about it. I do not trust her as this is the second time she's pulled something like this on me. And yes, I did break NC after a month today to tell her these things. She has yet to respond to my long message. It was honestly the hardest string or paragraphs I have ever written to someone in my life. I know in writing this I may have sealed the deal for us ever having a chance back together and this is no more of a risk than love is. I told her I cannot forgive her right now and that I cannot be that friend that she wants me to be right now. I told her that I do not trust her right now. I told her that I truly am not over her and that I have not forgotten about her. I need more time to make that right. These were all of my lingering feelings that I have been holding up and I finally found them. I found them and got rid of them and I will say this now, it's a huge weight off my mind. I feel like I can finally emotionally take a step forward and instead of talking to women in a reserved way, I can finally open up a little. I told her that it was because of her that I have grown to be the man that I am today and that she changed my outlook on practically everything. She really rocked my world and I really want what's best for both of us. I would let those lingering feelings get in the way of our friendship so I told her about it. I feel emotionally relieved but at the same time I cannot help but burst into tears knowing that I am making a huge leap of faith and that I may lose her forever. Life and love is such a strange thing. 2
Tyler. Posted July 27, 2012 Posted July 27, 2012 Hey Ponzzz, congrats man you took a big step. I know those feelings that are left over, you're not gonna just forget her overnight. But remember this you guys did break up for a reason, so be strong. Be the best man you can be, and if she really is the best for you, it will all work out. But first you must let it go in order to see things the way they really are. Emotions and love can really cloud your judgement. And about the text, well done man. I couldn't do it to this day but after you saying the weight is lifted off your shoulders, i'll do it. We are in similar situations and i kind of know how you feel, believe me. I'm glad you're not a sucker for this girl, like you're not going to run back to her no matter what she did that caused the BU. I also can't do the friends thing with my ex, and i don't know if i'll ever will. Kudos for moving on and giving yourself time to cope and rebuild yourself. We all feel pain after a break up but in theory, love must give you pleasure not pain. She might not have been the one, which means you have the opportunity to get to meet an amazing new person that will complete you in every way. So in order the get the BEST GIRL EVER, pick yourself up and improve yourself, so that you'll be the best boyfriend to her. Stay strong, you've come a long way bro.
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