Author Mary Oak Posted July 26, 2012 Author Posted July 26, 2012 I don't know if I could wait that long. But, then again, what else am I going to do. I am trying to better myself, and I think it will be a long journey. I am ok with that. I think she is still processing this all. SHe said that time is helping because the first week was so hurtful, but since then she has been able to start remembering the good times. She is so supportive of me and my new actions. I just don't know how that fits into her life or if it does. I did not go into work today so I won't be seeing her. She said that showed growth there as I never took time off work. SHe will be gone sat-wed, so I won't talk to her then either. That will be the longest we have never talked, and it is creating very anxious feelings. I feel so lost without her, but some parts feel like she is still there...we know everything each other does. She will talk about things like IF we get back togther and then she will say things like she doesn't know if it will happen. She said that what she wants and what is right is not always the right thing. My couselor mentioned having her come to our session but I don't think I to am ready to ask her that yet. Scared she will say no. I really do wish you luck. Not many people committ to fighting for what they want. It is a scary thing to do. I always thought I would be the type to run, but how can you run away from something that you know is right?
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