MixedMinh Posted July 24, 2012 Posted July 24, 2012 First, I'd like to thank everybody on this website who has helped contribute. I've spent most of my time just browsing and reading other threads with very little posting. I had a couple posts of my own a few times a couple years back. I'm a 27 year old male who has been on/off in a serious long-term relationship for 6 years. I'm not really sure what I'm looking for by posting here. I think I need to vent a little and possibly read some feedback from people who can relate with my situation. I've gone through the ups and downs of this relationship several times already so I don't really feel bad for myself for being in the dumps again. I feel like I'm eternally doomed to be in love with this one girl. We've broken up 3 times in 6 years and each time it felt as if it was the end. But our weaknesses bring us back together, especially mine. I can't say no to her and I can't reject her, but she can do that to me. I've never once broken up with her, it was always her idea. I'm not sure what brings her back to me, when I've asked her why she keeps coming back to me when she is knowingly not content/happy with the relationship she tells me it's because I love her. Each time we break up it seems more permanent than the last. I'm aware that it wouldn't be a good idea to get back with her even if she wanted me back at this point. But I can't say that I would have the self control not to. The way I feel with her is surreal, it's nothing I've ever felt before. I feel like I'm dreaming while I'm with her and I never want the dream to end. But after such continuous failure at making the relationship work I always feel as though our time together is limited and has an expiration date. She's selfish and I always seem to forgive her regardless of her mistakes. At this point in life I'm having a lot of difficulty dating. I can't seem to develop feelings for anyone. I feel so jaded to the point where dating is exhausting and so overwhelmingly difficult. Everybody has their own baggage. I'm getting older and I'm starting to feel like I will always be single. If I try to date someone new I feel as though I have to fake it. Right now I'm just trying to focus on my life and better myself, but it gets very lonely, especially when I've been accustomed to sleeping next to a beautiful woman who I loved very much almost every night for the past 6 years. I'm lost and I just don't know what I should be doing with my life anymore. I always thought I would be getting married, settling down and having a family at this point in my life and I'm nowhere near that stage. I know that I have to take things one step at a time and pick myself back up, but I feel as though I've been doing that over and over again. Sigh. I hope nobody else has to experience this heartbroken-ness.
g450 Posted July 24, 2012 Posted July 24, 2012 Your text is hard to read. Can you break it down into paragraphs? From the jist of what I can make out, You simply keep going back to the same toxic relationship. Ask yourself why? The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results. The solution is simple. Find a different girl. If that doesnt solve the problem then the problem is YOU. Fix yourself.
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