Take my pain away..

[NoneoftheAbove]

Since things werent going like i wanted, i went to her yesterday for a support and she told me one thing that pushed my buttons. I told her to get out of my car and never want to see her again. Im happy with my decision. Because she turned me into this monster person. I will be back on my feet in no time. Right now it hurts but i did it before and will do it again. Just venting here.

[Dblock10]

what did she say that pushed your big red button of doom

[NoneoftheAbove]

Since she destroyed my trust for her..Couple of times i went to her work place but i didnt pull into the parking lot. Yesterday i went to talk to her about things and just needed comfort. As im talking she says "security told me that you come to my work and park there for 5 mins and leave" i says even if i came there i wouldnt pull into the parking lot because i know people will see me. Accusing me of sh*it i didnt do. This has turned into a drama, this is not love...so i told her to leave and that i never want to see her again.

[NoneoftheAbove]

I love this girl. She changed me into this maniac of a person where she consumes all of my thoughts. I was never like this. Im have a very big heart and that heart is in a lot of pain because of her. She completely changed the way of i look at things, destroyed me inside and out. I have hurt her feelings too, its not because i wanted to its because she turned me into this maniac of a man..

[NoneoftheAbove]

Im so broken. I just want to be not seen by anyone. Im so alone. No one to talk to.

[NoneoftheAbove]

Im going to take this time to make myself a better man. I know its going to take a lot of hard work, i need to do this in order for me to go back to old me. I miss being happy and not worrying. Time to focus on things and actually get them done.