StrikeFreedom Posted July 24, 2012 Posted July 24, 2012 It's been nearly 7 years since I first got my heart broken in high school by a girl a fell in love with shortly after we became friends. It's the typical *friendzone* story. It's been 1 year since my first girlfriend of 2 years and I broke up. Our relationship ended because of my curiosity about my sex life and about not wanting to settle down yet since I'm so young (22). But both of these relationships have left me with some seriously debilitating emotional pain. It affects my entire life. Family, friends, personal goals. Over the last 7 years I've tried so hard to get into fitness and enjoy it as a hobby and make friends. I've tried so many times to go down the path of success but I keep failing. About 1 year into doing anything productive my emotional pain starts to creep in and remind me that although I'm working so hard and doing whats right, I'm still not happy. I still can't enjoy my life because my mind is so focused on past guilt and mistakes. I don't know where to turn. I want to become successful but my life seems to go in the big cycles of 1 year of hard work and then 1 year of emotional depression and self wallow. I don't know what to do. I'm a nice guy. Good hearted. Maybe a little overly sensitive when it comes to my emotions.
pathetic1999 Posted July 24, 2012 Posted July 24, 2012 You broke up with your last girlfriend because you were not ready to settle down?
Author StrikeFreedom Posted July 24, 2012 Author Posted July 24, 2012 You broke up with your last girlfriend because you were not ready to settle down? Well she was my first girlfriend and after about a year I started to wonder what dating other girls would be like.... so then I felt guilty and eventually over time it ate away at me and I broke up with her because in my mind it was the right thing to do if my thoughts wouldn't let me commit to her.
Dblock10 Posted July 24, 2012 Posted July 24, 2012 i think this is commonly referred to grass is greener syndrome giggity
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