big bear Posted July 24, 2012 Posted July 24, 2012 This is more of a vent rather than asking for advice. So, I cheated she cheated. I was an a**hole and broke her emotionally. She got over me in 20 days and had someone (Not sure). It has 1 full month of NC in between. Went to her city and wanted to meet her. Came to know she had an accident. Started checking up on her everyday. She says why have you started calling me everyday. I stop and call after interval of 3 days. Yesterday was her post-surgery evaluation. So call her doesn't pick up but have a small chat on text. Cal her today. She acts so indifferent. It was so disgusting that I could feel myself being devalued with every word from her mouth. I don't know what to do. I can go into NC but the thing when I had a big biking accident she took care of me. And somewhere inside my heart I feel guilty. This misplaced sense of duty, God if there was a way out. I really want to make a special video for her showing the things she did wrong how cheated me.I have offered my self on the pedestal (not that the feelings are there with that intensity anymore) but really fel like giving her good dose of truth and bring her down to planet earth. Good Lord life has become a bitch.
g450 Posted July 25, 2012 Posted July 25, 2012 So she is in the hospital with an injury and you want to send her an accusatory video because you feel sorry for yourself and want her to know how much YOU hurt? Am I getting this right? Seriously? And you cheated on her to boot? Wow! Karma. Only suggestion I have for you is one: Leave her alone. She doesnt need anger or your pitty right now. If you really care then pay her medical bills for her.
Author big bear Posted July 25, 2012 Author Posted July 25, 2012 She is at home recovering. She cheated too. Twice. I cheated only once. And the only reason I ask her how she is because she has gone to her home city and all her friends are in the city she works. Pity, sympathy or empathy I know she does not need that from me. It's just to give a person in pain the assurance that they are not alone and have options. If I wanted to make a video or something stupid I would have done it. I was angry and vented here. I just don't know what to do. I decided NC again. Told her I am available to talk anytime but won't be calling to check on her because that bothers her somewhere inside her. P.S: Nobody would take money from an ex. It would be a real blow to self-esteem.
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