Happyface Posted July 22, 2012 Posted July 22, 2012 I was feeling very sorry for myself and slipped up badly. He didn't respond which I know is the best thing that could have happened. It feels like failure. I have been doing soooo well. Happyface. (xGG)
whichwayisup Posted July 22, 2012 Posted July 22, 2012 Next time you get the urge, post here and let someone talk you out of it. Okay, you slipped up, a mistake was made and you regret it and feel bad. It's just a little blip on the radar - Don't make a big deal of it. What you need to do is close that email account and create a new one without adding exMM email address in your contact list.
Mount Posted July 22, 2012 Posted July 22, 2012 ;);)WWI....is the best. Next time you get the urge, post here and let someone talk you out of it. Okay, you slipped up, a mistake was made and you regret it and feel bad. It's just a little blip on the radar - Don't make a big deal of it. What you need to do is close that email account and create a new one without adding exMM email address in your contact list.
neveragain2012 Posted July 24, 2012 Posted July 24, 2012 We all slip up. But it's like any other addiction, habit, whatever you want to call it. Tomorrow is a new day. Try to think back to what triggered you to actually hit 'send' on the email. If you can identify the triggers it helps minimize the temptation.
Author Happyface Posted July 24, 2012 Author Posted July 24, 2012 It was just a moment of goodness knows what or why. I am trying not to bash myself for it but I feel very silly indeed. Happyface.
Author Happyface Posted July 24, 2012 Author Posted July 24, 2012 I had just been to the funeral of my oldest dearest friend's husband. I am guessing that was the trigger.
neveragain2012 Posted July 24, 2012 Posted July 24, 2012 That would do it for just about anyone! I'm sorry for your, and your friends, loss. Death is a horrible time for anyone and it almost always makes you take stock of your own life, what's important to you, etc. Not long after starting NC I was watching something on TV that talked about peoples 'last words' to someone. xMM and I split on good terms but for the life of me I cannot remember what my last words to him were, or his to me. I drove me crazy for a while. I really wanted to talk to him again so I could make sure my last words were good ones. I don't know why but it seemed important at the time. Point is, we all slip up and situations like yours are definitely understandable.
Author Happyface Posted July 25, 2012 Author Posted July 25, 2012 I didn't expect any response, rationally, so when there was no reply, it didn't make me feel anything. As to the future, who knows and who knows what he will do? I didn't want anything to happen, except perhaps to know that he is still alive and well. He is over 70 now. I don't want to rekindle the A but I don't hate him either. He was part of my life for a long time . He is just keeping NC as I asked. It was my mistake. Happyface. It was an emotional reaction to a funeral. I recognise it was nothing more.
Sugarcube Posted August 6, 2012 Posted August 6, 2012 Every day you have an opportunity for a fresh start. Smile, acknowledge the blessings in your life and know that the best is yet to come.
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