pinkyfairy Posted July 19, 2012 Posted July 19, 2012 He finally broke up with me after one month of struggling Things started when he found out I met some guys friends from internet when traveling for having some information of their cities,after that, he can't trust me anymore.After,we fought so much because of that,he got irritated easily because of that. He said he did much for me but I never did anything much for him in return. he finally got tired of that and that is one of the biggest reason that has changed his feelings. He said he doesn't love me anymore,he just likes to spend time with me,enjoys being with me and is happy when we are together,but that is not love,he doesn't miss me much when I am gone,and he is definitely sure that he doesn't want to spend his life with me...He said he loved me so much before and did all he could to make me happy,but I didn't do enough,I've been trying to change,but he said it is too late,because his love is already gone,and he is absolutely sure that he won't love me again...he doesn't want me to waste my time and get more hurt after.so he prefers to stop now.but he still wants to stay in touch and know how I am doing,but he doesn't want to know who I hang out with or go on a date with..because it will make him upset. I went to him one week ago to pick up my stuff,I couldn't go back to my city for some reason,so I asked if I could stay at his place,he didn't seem to want to but he said okay,and we went to his friend's that night,he also didn't want to take me there but I had no place to go.. I made a confession again to him,tell him that I was sorry for what I did(met other guys and did not do enough for him) etc...he was touched but he didn't say anything,because he really doesn't have that kind of feelings for me anymore..I told him again that I don't want to give him up,he asked me why,I said because I love him,he said he can't trust me again,and he is no more blind in love,he won't like or accept if I do something he doesn't like.. He told me to go home first,we would talk about it one week after,we don't contact each other or if we do,we do not talk about it,but don't live with hope.. It is been one week that we didn't talk to each other after he broke up with me,the day I left,he said we should not contact each other for one week to clear our mind,he already tried to break up with me a few times since the beginning of June,but I didn't agree and he still liked me,so we were still kind of together until he finally made up his mind to stop one week ago.. He's made it so clear that there wouldn't be any possibility for us in the future and that he won't ever fall in love with me again...so I think he told me to stay out of touch for one week was just a way to keep me away from his life and leave him alone for a while... he finally contacted me again,but the text message was so simple,just "hi" and a smiley, I don't really know if I should reply even if all my friends told me not to,personally,I think he just wanted to make it clear again that it is done between us,and wanted to know if I am okay even if he knows that I am not.. I really don't want to be hurt more and one more time especially I am finally moving on...but on the other hand,I don't want him to think that I am rude or don't want to be friends(he should know that I am not ready for that yet) Finally,I didn't listen to my friend and sent him back a message "hi",now I am feeling terrible because I can't wait to think when he will reply and what he will say...it doesn't help at all keeping in touch..he texted me back one day after,I think he did it on purpose,and his message was "we text each other one message in one day,that's average"...it sounds ironic.. I knew he said we would talk about it again after one week's separation,but now it seems it doesnt matter anymore anyway,what I dont understand is why is he doing it, because he tried so hard to keep me away and now he contacted me first,but didnt seem like wanting to talk,I really dont know what the hell he has on his mind....Cant he leave me in peace as I did for his decision? I've decided not to text him back,and that's what all my friends say: the best way for me to move on... Is it really what I should do?? Please help!
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