headsashed Posted July 18, 2012 Posted July 18, 2012 I dont really know how to explain this lol,ill try though. Last night id been to my friends party,id had a few drinks but i werent drunk,i was in too much pain with my broken rib,the night was pretty good,i didnt really think about the ex much either,it was like i was finally finding my own 2 feet again. Anyway,when i got home i started thinking about everything,like how my life was finally starting to move forward etc then the ex popped into my head,a wierd feeling hit me,it was like i dont want you back anymore,it werent that hard,not that ive wanted her back at all this time but my feelings were still strong and i missed her until i got thinking last night,alot of my feelings have faded quite abit. Its like im at a crossroads and my life with the ex is behind me and straight forward is my new life and i dont feel the need to look back. I got that guilty feeling towards my ex for some wierd reason? like im just forgetting about her and getting on with my life,i dunno its just confusing,i dunno if u can understand what im getting at lol. I woke up this morning and im feeling the same. I know it must mean im finally moving forward now but i still do miss her,maybe thats why im feeling guilty because i know now that she will never be a part of my life again. My ex has not once tried to get back with me either,ive had a few txts and phone calls which ive ingored,kind of makes me stronger each time i ignored too. So what is this feeling im having? is it guilt or am i just having 1 of them days? I do feel stronger and i can go about my daily life as normal now without feeling too much sadness.
k100danny Posted July 18, 2012 Posted July 18, 2012 I kind of get where you are coming from. I think it is fear really, like letting go and venturing into the unknown and knowing you wont see each other again. me and my ex split around 5 weeks ago and even though I think she has moved on or is at least trying to I still feel what feels like guilt now and again. especially looking at other women or thinking about them. I know we weren't right for each other but something is still keeping me attached slightly. I think this is normal I wouldn't worry too much about it. If you had a few drinks also remember alcohol is a depressant, you may think it is making you feel good but its doing something very different to your body.
Chi townD Posted July 18, 2012 Posted July 18, 2012 This is absolutely normal. You've been feeling like crap for a while now. Now, that you've started to heal, you're feeling better. Great actually! And you start to wonder why. Then at some level you realize is because the relationship is over and you've started to leave her behind. And that thought of leaving her behind makes you feel a little guilty. Because when push comes to shove, you did share some good times and your subsconiously starting to let those go. It's normal, dude.
Author headsashed Posted July 18, 2012 Author Posted July 18, 2012 This is absolutely normal. You've been feeling like crap for a while now. Now, that you've started to heal, you're feeling better. Great actually! And you start to wonder why. Then at some level you realize is because the relationship is over and you've started to leave her behind. And that thought of leaving her behind makes you feel a little guilty. Because when push comes to shove, you did share some good times and your subsconiously starting to let those go. It's normal, dude. Thanks pal,i kind of thought it was normal,i suppose it shows im actually starting to move on. Yeah we did share many great memories and i suppose its what im starting to let go of. All i ever did in my healing process was accept it was over and do what i can to let go,i knew i could never go back which tbh has helped me move on alot quicker. I still have times where i miss her but i know thats normal,as u said,we did share great memories together. Theres still a long way to go before ive fully healed and im ready to date again but atleast im doing all the right things. I do believe she will contact me sometime in the future,its just her nature but i do know im 100% strong enough to resist her advances. Onwards and upwards for me
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