klowzure Posted July 18, 2012 Posted July 18, 2012 We are early 20's, she's the first girl I've ever truly loved, she said she loved me too and wanted to spend the rest of her life with me... I neglected the relationship and she got pushed to the end and walked away from it, I didn't know what I had until it was gone. I thought she was a genuinely nice person, we have been close for 7 years since teenagers, and we we're together for 7 months, she is beautiful to look at, but it was the person she was which made me fall in love with her... After we broke up she completely cut me out of her life, she didn't contact once in 5 weeks, for her it was over, done, I didn't exist, I was shocked and thought that she was cold and careless for this... I reached out 3 or 4 times in those 5 weeks, it resulted in flames every time. I took it bad, and decided that I'm going to chase my long dream of becoming a French Foreign Legionnaire, it's the only way I am going to be able to move on, I need to get away from England, away from this life and away from her... I wrote her a message yesterday explaining that I could not believe how little I seemed to mean to her after everything, that I think she is a cold and careless witch, and asked what has happened to her for her to be like this.. and that I can not move on being around this place, watching her get on with her life under my nose, so I am going to leave to become a legionnaire... She dialed my number and tried to talk about how she just doesn't know what to do for the best and that's why she doesn't contact me, but she is hurting too it's been hard for her, she thinks about me all the time, and never ment for any of this to happen, she would take it all back and make it right if she could but she can't. We had 1 phonecall mid-day lasting 30 minutes and 1 convo at midnight lasting 30 minutes, and I think I regret it... it's just a sharp reminder of how much I actually love this girl, my head was all about finding ways to get over this and move on, but now I can only think about wanting her back, I didn't tell her I want her back, but she knows I love her. I have never known anything so hard in my life.
hopelessromantic29 Posted July 18, 2012 Posted July 18, 2012 Don't you think you owe it to urself to try one more time? N this time, if u guys are lucky, make it right! Don't make the same mistakes. Learn to trust the other person completely n show them how important they are to you.
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