whoknows11 Posted July 17, 2012 Posted July 17, 2012 I lose. I did everything i could to make things right with her when she left. Instead i took a beating each day emotionally and mentally. Ive suffered each day for the last two months. Its only gotten worse. Shes just mesed with me the whole time. We were fine with contact, then she turned on me and needed space after we broke up. I made mistakes by pestering her. But i started giving her space. Thing is, she texts me at times now to fight with me. And it kills me. Always saying each time shes done with me and to leave her alone. Shes gone for good. Ive been here waiting for her since she left. Then this happened. I played her game and lost. Ive never been down and out this deep and depressed. Like everythings so dark around me. She wants nothing to do with me. All i ever wanted was to make things right. Now i cant. Im miserable, a complete wreck. I cant chase her. Shes gone. I just have to deal with the memories and missing her. I havent moved on. Not an ounce. I tried.
Author whoknows11 Posted July 17, 2012 Author Posted July 17, 2012 I wish i knew how to cope with her being gone now. Its like someone close to me died. She manipulated me so easily.
BigBear Posted July 17, 2012 Posted July 17, 2012 I don't know your whole story but I completely relate. Sorry that you are going through this. I know what it is like to face extremely dark thoughts. Good luck to you, stay strong.
Dblock10 Posted July 17, 2012 Posted July 17, 2012 if she isn't capable or ready to see how great you are and how much you care or can care for someone. the fact you are on this fricking website anyway and she isn't... you have to try and see the silver lining dude. don't play games with yourself or her games. time to move on
Mcnulty Posted July 17, 2012 Posted July 17, 2012 The only way to heal...slowly, is to cut the ties. Do not let her contact you and brow beat you, tell yourself this. It is over, you've said this. there's nothing more you can do..the past is dead, only the present exists for you.
CopingGal Posted July 17, 2012 Posted July 17, 2012 As far as I'm concerned, my ex is dead. When someone is dead, you don't call them, you don't text them, you don't email them. You don't do anything because they are dead and buried. That's how I treat my ex...6 feet under!
Author whoknows11 Posted July 18, 2012 Author Posted July 18, 2012 Its been getting harder each day. Ive been wondering what shes up to. Does she even miss me. And if ill ever hear from her. But i doubt i will. As much as id love to make things right. Shes gone. I woke up today feeling like i could care less about her and contacting her. It wasnt hard at all to not contact her. I know i miss her so much. And i havent lost an ounce of feeling for her. I could just be drained emotionally and mentally from taking a beating lately.
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