Coffee20 Posted July 16, 2012 Posted July 16, 2012 What a shame situation..... and I am again where I was before .... hm my ex used an ICQ for a while but he deleted it and never came back, when I asked why he didn't come anymore, he answered he deleted it, forgot password...he was offline and then grey. After we broke up I used it as my coping blog, I wrote him a lot, so many times and today he logged in, he read all my insane and sane messages.....and answered to leave him alone, I decided not to answer then and felt really stupid, but it continued, I wrote him shortly that I didn't think he used it anymore and wanted to leave him alone.He wrote back he started to use it and got all my messages just today at night. Here I am, we argued again, about the same things, he again tried to make me feel guilty, called my friend ugly names. I tried to be polite, but our conversation took again a wrong way. I usually never have conversations like that, it shows a lot we are not compatible even not like two normal people. So probably it means we have never learned and if we eventually talk again in the future, we will fight over the same things again and again, I really really have to laugh ..... But this was my fault, I shouldn't write him there, it was the only way to help me to get out of this. It gave me a closure, cause I could write "him". Now I feel so stupid, I wrote so many things there . Yes I am stupid.
darkmoon Posted July 16, 2012 Posted July 16, 2012 if he really didn't like it, he would have blocked you, but yes, let go, let other things happen to you instead
CopingGal Posted July 16, 2012 Posted July 16, 2012 Coffee, I'm sorry. I don't know what an ICQ is, but if you want to "write" to him and not send it, then why don't you use the "Post here instead of contacting your ex" thread? What's done is done. Try not to stress. Again, sorry that happened.
hinatticus Posted July 17, 2012 Posted July 17, 2012 That's so embarrassing! I can understand that it must've felt therapeutic writing to "him". I probably would've done the same thing. How embarrassing. It's kinda funny too tho. I'm sorry.
Author Coffee20 Posted July 17, 2012 Author Posted July 17, 2012 ICQ is something like messenger (hotmail etc....), you have there contacts. Hm I was sure he will never go there, no I was sure, he deleted it forever, he stopped using it in January. I had weird dream today, we were together in the hospital and we were very old, of course we were fighting. Yesterday he asked me whether will we be friends one day....don't understand it anymore.
g450 Posted July 20, 2012 Posted July 20, 2012 Get off ICQ and stop playing games with him. Its over. If you need to blog then do it here annonymously. Problem solved.
Author Coffee20 Posted July 20, 2012 Author Posted July 20, 2012 Get off ICQ and stop playing games with him. Its over. If you need to blog then do it here annonymously. Problem solved. I did blocked him, I don't have any intention to play a game with him. I really thought he wouldn't be there and as I see, he isn't there anymore. I am also his only one contact there.
Author Coffee20 Posted July 20, 2012 Author Posted July 20, 2012 oh yeah I have to agree, I am just playing games but only with myself....I prolong my pain for no reason, I don't know how can I still love a person who treated me so poorly.
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