MissMoni Posted July 15, 2012 Posted July 15, 2012 Wow. Definitely did not think I would be back on here, it's been a long time... The breakup that brought me here was in October 2010, it is hard to believe it will be two years in just a few months. I'm doing a lot better, and have come a long way (it does get better everyone ) Between then and now, I've graduated from college, lost about 30 pounds, got a great job right out of school that is willing to pay for my graduate education, bought a car, and will be starting grad school in the fall. Bascially, everything that I've wanted to do, I have done. Still, I haven't had any new prospects for relationships, and that has been kind of hard for me, as I think that would really help me over the hump in completely letting go of my ex. It was my first relationship, and even though deep down I know that if he wasn't feeling the relationship, he did me a big favor, I still feel a level of resentfulness and jealousy that he seemed to so easily move on and cut me from his life, after dating nearly two years. While he reached out a handful of times after the breakup, it was me who really tried to be his friend and keep up with him, and I feel angry at myself for holding on to someone who so clearly couldn't care less over what I'm doing. I feel like he sends mixed signals -- he can tell me happy birthday on FaceBook, but when I announce something big that he knows I've wanted for a long time, such as getting into grad school -- he doesn't congratulate me. At all. I deleted my ex from FaceBook about 4 months after the breakup and explained to him I did it to move on, but he was super offended and ended up deleting mutual friends, family etc. A couple of months later, I re-added him, thinking I was ready to "be friends". Since that time, I have had him off my newsfeed, and only talk to him sparingly, at all. At this point, I haven't had any contact with him since me telling him thank you for saying happy bday, which was about 5 months ago. My question is -- would it be rude to delete him from FB? I still care about him and hope to oneday be friends, but it is looking like that is something that will never happen. So what is the point of being pseudo FB friends? If he can't even congratulate me when things are going well, then why does he bother having me on FaceBook? Plus I feel kind of odd about him being able to keep up on my life. On one hand, I know my FB projects that I'm having this awesome life without him, and on the other I know it's pathetic because I wonder if he can sense the fact that I secretly do want him to know that I am doing fine without him. He barely posts on FB, so it seems kind of odd that should I ever want to check up on him, I wouldn't be able to know anything that is going on, but he can see my entire life story without ever talking to me. I know after 2 years he should be a non-factor, as he is not thinking about me in his life at all. My friends have threatened if I don't delete him, they will contact him and tell him to delete me because they are convinced it's not healthy for me to still think about him. I rarely check his FB, but lately I have found myself wondering why he doesn't care...at all. It's like he never cared, how he can so easily never talk to me again.I guess my question is, after 2 years, would it be petty for me to delete him from FB to finally move on with my life? Would it even matter in the grand scheme of things? I guess my real fear is if I delete him, I will truly be burning that bridge for good. I'm a friendly person and don't really like confrontation or having others upset with me. I feel like it would be a boost for his ego, "Oh wow she's STILL hung up on me and I don't even talk to her...how lame" Then again..why do I even care what he thinks? Any suggestions, LoveShack?
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