whoknows11 Posted July 16, 2012 Posted July 16, 2012 Ive been going through the same. I guess im not the only one. Constant dreams, thoughts, feelings, worries. You know the rest. I go through them each day. Ive been losing sleep because of it. And when i do sleep, its not until really late. Usually 4am or 5am. Possibly later. Just so i can sleep most of the day away. I know it isnt healthy. Its like being in a nightmare. Just thinking of the mistakes i made after the breakup. Like pestering/annoying her and never giving her space. Until the day she said shes done with me and to please leave her alone. Ive never felt more guilt/regret in my life for everything. Sits on my mind each day and night. Like i murdered someone. Ive been battling this depression for a while, between her leaving me which hurt the most. Job loss,not really having friends,etc. id honestly rather be dead at this point. It beats the constant struggle/sadness eachday.
LostGirl11 Posted July 16, 2012 Posted July 16, 2012 Woke up today and the same thing happened, it just pierced right tru me and i did everyones advice on here, everything and it still felt like hell... Crying right now im so mentally and physically exhausted from not being able to sleep well and bring emotionally drained...woke up rethinking what i couldve done etc but i kno its of no use and its just something i hafta accept but my heart is so extremely broken, truly doin everything i can but nothing but severe pain rt now I don't know how you feel about meds but I was like you, it was wearing me down, I was drained. I basically went to the doctors and they gave me some sort of relaxant pill, and was told to only take one when I needed to which was before bed and when I woke up. They did help. They kind of de-cluttered my head. I wasn't a zombie or anything, they just helped me not to think so much.
whywhy Posted July 16, 2012 Posted July 16, 2012 when i say id rather break every bone in my body then feel what i feel now is seriously the truth, there is nothing worse then this feeling, the only tine i feel somewhat human is when i work out or talk to freinds. When I wake up in the am all i wanna do is run and workout. Maybe this will help you too. Even if you cant run maybe just walk outside and call old freinds...
theskyisblue Posted July 16, 2012 Posted July 16, 2012 Whywhy it really sounds like you're really suffering with it. Working out seems like such a good idea. Are you finding it helps? Been thinking the gym might be a good idea - just getting fit and not thinking about stuff whilst you do it. Plug in a bit of music and work through it. You keeping busy with friends as well?
CaliBabe Posted July 16, 2012 Posted July 16, 2012 I am going through the same thing right now with a new breakup. I am going to have to start taking sleeping pills in order for me to sleep regularly. I don't want to but I must as my work schedule will not allow me to not sleep and be dysfunctional. Mornings really are the worst.
edelveis Posted July 16, 2012 Posted July 16, 2012 Calli cant you somehow avodi the pills?there pills trust me will make you be dysfunctional except all the other side effects..try to workout for example ?maybe it will help you release your tension there and sleep easier..or read something before sleep?i used to drink a beer every night before sleep the 1st month after the break up and it helpend me sleep,,sounds crazy or funny but it worked!maybe you could give it a try
CaliBabe Posted July 16, 2012 Posted July 16, 2012 Your right, I will try reading or working out first. It is a healthier choice and the last thing I need is a bad side effect, thanks for the advice and concern. 1
whywhy Posted July 16, 2012 Posted July 16, 2012 Whywhy it really sounds like you're really suffering with it. Working out seems like such a good idea. Are you finding it helps? Been thinking the gym might be a good idea - just getting fit and not thinking about stuff whilst you do it. Plug in a bit of music and work through it. You keeping busy with friends as well? Yea it's the only thing that ever helped. I've been torn apart with no sleep, no food and the only thing that helps at all is going outside on a nice run and listen to music. Yea I've been on the phone with friends and trying to get outside as much as possible. How are you doing??
theskyisblue Posted July 16, 2012 Posted July 16, 2012 Hey whywhy, glad to hear you think the gym is a good idea. It's keeping yourself busy that is so important. Music choice is a big part of it as well - so many tracks have meanings or lyrics that's just make listening to them so hard. Totally with you on talking to friends and family on the phone. It's absolutely what you need. Really don't think I could function without having them here. You ever feel like you need to just talk at people and explain everything - just so you have used up the words and understood it yourself? You sort of find yourself explaining the same thing to people but maybe that's part of helping and how it works? Think the exercise thing is a good idea though.
whywhy Posted July 17, 2012 Posted July 17, 2012 Hey whywhy, glad to hear you think the gym is a good idea. It's keeping yourself busy that is so important. Music choice is a big part of it as well - so many tracks have meanings or lyrics that's just make listening to them so hard. Totally with you on talking to friends and family on the phone. It's absolutely what you need. Really don't think I could function without having them here. You ever feel like you need to just talk at people and explain everything - just so you have used up the words and understood it yourself? You sort of find yourself explaining the same thing to people but maybe that's part of helping and how it works? Think the exercise thing is a good idea though. That's exactly what i do. I talk about it over and over and over to try and understand it myself and hoping for a conversation that will help me and most do, but when I'm home alone and thinking about it, it all doesn't make sense so I have to get out. I honestly can't believe that this feeling actually exists...
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