Nancy B Posted July 10, 2012 Posted July 10, 2012 Dragged out break up began two months ago. He changed his mind a lot. A month ago he wanted me back. Then he didn't. Then we played with the idea of living together as friends next year (we live abroad-lease ending soon). We played with this idea ip until last weekend. He though it was bad idea but we could still be really close and sleepover next year.lifes hard away from home. ______ today he calls me, he's contemplating moving across our foreign city to live with two guys. I got upset and he says all that stuff about stastating super close next year was to save my feelings. Im devestated. Our city is dangerous and having him close is comfort. I've had a panic attack in the toilets at work. I want to pack my bags and leave. I thought I was coping but I am having a breakdown
jquest1280 Posted July 10, 2012 Posted July 10, 2012 Cry. Take deep breaths. Go out for a walk. Some people backed up against a wall can marshall inner resources, focus, and fight. Be one of these people.You Do Not Need This Guy. Let's be practical, as you live in a dangerous city, take the steps to protect yourself. You don't have your security blanket anymore. (note, did he really defend you from actual danger?). Myself, I found that when I couldn't depend on him anymore, I reached out to others, and was better off in the end. 1
Author Nancy B Posted July 10, 2012 Author Posted July 10, 2012 Its more than a security leaving me. I feel so drained. If he leaves our area im afraid ill never see him anymore. He is telling me to move on. I've heard these new roomates commenting on making a chick magnet apartment next year. Totally immature but that's what my ex is dissapearing into. My dodgy part of town feels both scarier and lonlier. I lay awake every night. I want to feel like I don't need him but I can't get there. Came to his place and relapsed into panic attack two after work. Trying to convince him we should give us another go. Its pathetic. Im doing everything I said I wouldn't. I go home to visit family I havnt seen in a long time soon. I was so excited and now I feel nothing. Ill probabley spend the time crying my eyes out. The news of him moving away has caused such a relapse. I feel like I can't cope anymore
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