My heart feels like it's going to explode :(

[supermanthatho]

My ex gf has the (G.I.G.S) and I believe it was caused by the Implanon she put in after the miscarriage. My heart is hurting me so much and right now as I write this thread she is having sex with him at his house (don't ask how I know) I can't take it anymore. It's so all of a sudden out of the blue and It's so hard to move on when we were together for 3 years and this was just to erratic! I've read that some partners that have G.I.G.S come back to their old relationship but I want to know if she does come to me how on earth is she going to be able to fix all the pain and suffering she caused me. I could never trust her after this. I need someone right now cause I'm alone in my house and there's a possibility I could do something stupid. I know logically I should move on but that's easier said than done. If she does come back to me and I'm still in love with her like I am now how do you reconcile? how is it even possible to reconcile? What do I say to her so she can understand and fix all the suffering she's putting me through right now?

[big bear]

Take a deep breath that's what I do and then listen to some relaxing music. Do just that for now, rest can be thought of.

 

And do no even think of anything stupid. The easy way out is much more suffering to your near and dear one's than you are currently experiencing.

 

You cannot be that selfish.

[supermanthatho]

Take a deep breath that's what I do and then listen to some relaxing music. Do just that for now, rest can be thought of.

 

And do no even think of anything stupid. The easy way out is much more suffering to your near and dear one's than you are currently experiencing.

 

You cannot be that selfish.

 

yeah iv been tryin to calm myself with lifting weights. i put the blade away i realize that was stupid but im in so much agony its hard to bear.

[big bear]

Take a nap, it's calmer when you wake up. Always works for me.